My blog....

I've been debating what to write all day- I've spent the day cleaning, taking breaks to check other fellow challenger blogs- I've avoided 'proper' exercise all day....
My current WL journey is pretty much a secret from all people that I see/spend time with/work with etc....its not that I want it to be secret- But I find it hard to tell people cuz I'm still afraid of failing....so i've not been telling anyone (except DH and some family)...is that healthy? the odd person knows- because they have noticed..
Now I'm even being guarded about what I want to say here- I'm almost nervous that there is so many people reading and checking out my blog-- what if its someone i know and they report back to my boss or people in my town--- is it possible? should I worry? should I try to be more annoymous?

ahhh what to do- this is supposed to be a place for me to share my journey but at the same time I'm censoring how I really feel sometimes....

so in the meantime, I'll keep blogging....but thats always in the back of my mind...

The groceries of a Weight Watcher

As I was putting away my things from my most recent trip to the store- I had a good laugh at the things that were in my bin....made me laugh.... I also picked up a people magazine for some extra motivation....hope you all are having a GREAT WEEKEND...

Gotta finish unpacking the groceries and go for a walk...

did that walk- that was really good 1.39miles!!

Then I played photo experiment check this out...I'm kinda funny...

i binged

grrrrr......how can i do that to myself....all was going well- was hungry when got home from ouber stressful day, had sensible snack (still had 20points left- out of 34!!) then ate dinner still had like 7 left and then I just ate, and ate and ate...I mean most thing were low points but WHAT WAS I THINKING (well I wasn't, I guess cuz i'm soooo mad at myself now) I made myself sit down after I was thinking rationally and write it all down (using wrappers as evidence) and now I'm at -9....now this fattie either needs to run a marathon tonight or I'm in debt of points...
grrr.. anyways I may take the dog for a walk- its the least I could do, my tummy feels icky and I feel like I may vomit... walking the dog would help, I gotta go...

hope you all are having a better day then me...

Trying to figure out sizes

This isn't ment to be an offensive post- just me trying to process some thoughts....and this shouldn't really be happening becasue weight is just a number- I'm doing this to be healthy etc etc however its my curiousity that is getting the best of my--- enough said, here goes...

It puzzles me a little to figure out what weight is what size.... I've read MANY blogs in the past couple weeks and its very interesting to me when I see how much someone weighs and the size they are coming or going from...I guess height has ALOT to do with it, but I just wondering how the world see's us (not that I should care but.....I'm curious)

This reminds me of a conversation I walked into between my mom and one of her friends- at the time I was 16 and I was 218 pds (remember cuz i was trying to get under 200)-athletic (played v-ball and basketball)...I heard my moms friend say (who in my memory was very rollie pollie and 'bigger then me') was saying she was soo worried about getting close to 200 pds.... it puzzled me- maybe she was lieing to my mom or her 200 pds looked different then my 200 pds...

I'm 296 at this time and when I was 310 I was Size 22 (a little tight) and now loosly a 22 pant/20 fits a ittybitty tight.

Do I look 300 pds? I know that when I've told people how much I weigh (ones I can trust in the real world) they are shocked....maybe people don't have a good concept of how weight to looks...

Anyone else care to share?

how does the best intentioned day turn bad??

I was doing so good- so motivated- so ready for this new year....then I steped on the scale (it was up) then I thought I would make myself feel beter by re-taking my measurements (last taken on Nov) and the 2 I took where the SAME....and then I went downstairs,

I think I left it too late to eat breakfast- then when I started to eat, I couldn't stop..as well last night they made me take food home from the party- (I'm sure your saying, nobody can make you do anything) but i refused refused and they snuck a tray into my bag....I guess I could have thrown them out once I was home- but I didn't and I ate those....grrrrr
we then tried to go grocery shopping for some healthy stuff- to get this NEW YEAR started...however every freekin grocery store was closed, so we ended up at a pub....
the only redeeming quality of my day was I went for a walk, and got 3 loads of laundry done-- tomorrow is a new day....and tonight is the start of BIggest LOSER!! woo woo new season

Jan 1 2008- nice to meet you

This is my post for getting started at the Healthy You Challenge....

My name is Carleen, I live in British Columbia Canada with my husband and dog and cat.

My main goals for the healthy you challenge are:

• Lose and maintain 75 pounds
• Exercise 4 days a week
• Exercise for min of 20 mins each time- increasing to 40mins by Dec.
• Learn not to "romanticize" food. My husband often tells me its all I think about- landmark locations by resataurants, reminese about trips by the food we ate. etc
• Celebrate the little things/enjoy the journey(started this already- set up a secondary blog for my Non-Scale Victories in life- you'll see the link off my main page)
• Stick to my new years resolutions that impact my whole life- not just weight loss

Just an note- I'm doing WW meetings as my method to lose, and I've almost got my husband interested in joining!!!Take Care look forward to hearing about you all!

in other news:
new day new year....I'm had alot of time on my hands the past couple days (my office has closed since the 21)....so i've browsed lots of blogs, snooped lots of boards and in all been gathering many motivating peices of advice.... one that stuck espeically in my head was "i didn't get a chance to eat any sweets but thats ok- it just means I have less weight to loose then" or something like that.... so I'm going to try and approach all my food intake like that- you can have one to taste- then fill up on something good for you- then if you want have another taste- but you don't need to fill up on the superhigh calorie treat everything that goes in, has to be worked off....(that concept may be obvious to some- however it just really made sense to me last night) So yesterday I didn't get as much time to organize as I would have liked so that is today...started my day with a 2 REALLY big glasses of water...(kinda pigged out last night- need the clense)

and i'm off to clean my house?!? fun fun

Last Day of the Year!!!

woo woo....its over 2007!! and on to 2008
The plan is 2008 is the year-- to change my life....
I've in the Spring Chicks Challenge on the Challenge Central WW Board and the Shannons Easter Challenge (See link on side panel)....I created some new years resolutions on Facebook- for all to see (who have that application) that should also help to keep me accountable!!!
The water is an obvious one- I had an epihany the other day about how when you drink lots you feel full (I know its obvious but I actually felt it the other day)...the excersize 4 times a week is also important- I have a dog that needs walking so there really is NO excuse for not doing some sort of excercise.
While I was in the Vancouver yesterday i had the "pleasure" to visit Addition-ELle and Reitmans Encore section at Park Royal...I just have to say I HATE PLUS SIZE clothing!!!! I was soooo mad when I left there- the prices are so expensive even with a "SALE" going on....I looked at a couple of things and since I'm between sizes (20-22) they looked aweful....so in anycase, that was a kick in the butt to get OUT of those "Fatty Stores" and get movin'

Hope all is well with you all- take care and stay positive
we are off to the neighbors tonight for a couple of drinks and snacks (probably not WW friendly-however I'm in charge of bringing a veggie plate)

HAPPY NEW YEAR---my new years resolutions!
(as posted on Facebook earlier today)
I resolve to ... re-learn how to play piano (after a 12 year hiatus)
I resolve to ... do more good deeds!
I resolve to ... spend more time/stay better connected with family & friends
I resolve to ... not spend as much time on Facebook!
I resolve to ... update my Blog more frequently
I resolve to ... not let work stress me out so much
I resolve to ... be more active and healthy

at work- slackin off

just me- being at work, slackin off a bit....today is a new OP day.....was going to go to Tim H's for B-fast this AM but kept driving, just had my fruit bar instead....motivated to get losing again, joined a bunch of challenges on the WW boards and looking forward to the scale going down again!

I'm having a debate for lunch...I was going to treat myself to a slice of pizza (9pts) but I'm trying to convince myself I would enjoy/my body would like a footlong ham sub- with cheese and honeymustard sauce for 14pts....hmmm the debate- both food items require me to drive and go get- Subway further then pizza.....I'll post later with my decision....

soo...we survived!! got home last night at 12:36am so in total the travel took almost 4 hrs (ferry was late, we were in the line up early, road slightly slippery-drove slow)......however very hectic from our perspective it was fun and nice to spend time with family....glad we could make it this year!!

Very Happy its back to normal today---- I could use some normalicy, DH and I were deceiding yesterday to stay one more day or get out of there on the last ferry last night- we left and I"m glad, I finally said to him, I need toget back on and back on track!!! Going to have a protein shake for breakfast this AM...start my detox :) Christmas was fun but really glad to get back to routine.....

not good news this AM from the scale.... its registering that Im up- way up --its giving me the error message which means over 300!!!! (my scale is usually 3 pds heavier then WI) so that would be 11ish pounds up... follow me on my journey to lose it before my next weigh in...grrrr..I had no rules- i never though I wouldn't gain weight....but I'm going to work my BUTT off to get it off...
anyways today DH is going to vancouver to buy his new cell phone- I'm not going cuz I need to re-group and loose some weight!

The festivities were good- I got spoiled and had interesting times with the family....got a new digital camera and lots of other goodies.. my favorite live-inperson weught loss inspiration was at our christmas eve party....the pic below is of Shannon- who I have more fun with then anyone else in recent years- tons of fun, lots of energy, likes to have jello-shooters and belt out KAREOKEE untill the wee hours of the morning...and she used to be "fat" like mid-200's....now as you can see she is just little-has been lifetime for about 6 years, its always very motivating to see/hang out with her...

hope Santa was good to you

let the holidays begin....

for me its finally the start of the holiday season- I'm done work and I'm heading "home" to my parents with DH and Doggie for 5 days...today I will be doing some last minute shopping/wrapping and packing...and maybe some housework so the place is clean for our return onthe 27th..... I havn't been able to get my eating on track since my Wed set back....but I guess i have 2 weeks to do so- I have no meeting untill Jan 2....

So we are going to be busy while in Powell River
23rd- 2pm go up mountain and sleigh ride, have weiner roast
24th- visit friends father in hospitals
visit friend and her boys at there house
have dinner at step sisters
go to Kareokee/Guitar Hero party at brother and sister-in-law
25th- wake up at dads
go to moms for breakfast
back to dads for dinner

26th- SHOPPING
Go to Uncle Jimmys for Visit
Have dinner with mom's side of the family at Uncle Eds

27th- get the heck out of there and go home to relax and back to work on the 28th

hope everyone is doing well....take care and have a safe and happy holiday!!!

GOTTA GET BACK ON TRACK

I've realized that my 2 weeks of sick has caused me to take a very downward spiral on my WL.... my husband has been joking with me that "my diets over" and I'm really thinking he was right...I have been slackin....it kinda all started when he asked me to stop spending soo much time on the boards....without my frequent check-ins, I don't feel as motivated??? but stop all the pointing fingers- I'm the one that is putting the food in my mouth- I COULD make a choice to pick something better, I could make my fat butt get off the couch....I COULD, I SHOULD and I WILL....

This is a new week- no obvious pit-falls on the calender as of yet...Christmas PArty on Friday night, DH in Vancouver Tues night-Wed....other then that I WILL...get back on the track...

BTW_ we did get snow, its been fun, but now its raining and its going to take it ALL away...onwards for a wet coast winter....

Chow for now

"today is a new day"

I truely did have good intentions yesterday- it just didn't work out that way... I ate a off program lucnh and dinner- so today is a new day, my dad is coming to night to help us paint the interior of the house....that should be fun and will help me stay on track as I don't want him to see me not be OP....so hope all is well with everyone else
HAPPY FRIDAY!!!