Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I'm outside the door of the WW mtg

I'm going inside and I'm facing the music
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Monday, September 21, 2009


was good... had my normal high fibre cereal- fruit bar as snack...

planned to have a hamburger for lunch-- also purchased and ate a apple
fritter when I went to buy hamburgerbuns (got white instead of brown)

then I have some cookies...

then for diner 1.5 hamburgers.....and a swiss roll...

could i have stopped myself??? I don't know, I heard myself trying to
talk myself out of it....but did I listen??? umm NO

but I did go for a 20 min run tonight with the dog...but that FAR from
makes up for the bad eating
lets see what tomorrow brings

Sunday, September 20, 2009

This is THE week....

I've got the fridge stocked with good veggies and fresh low fat meats hubby and I went for a run together on saturday, and a walk today...I am noticing in all kidns of ways the weight gain...little more flabby, clothes thighter ITS TIME...

I've been trying to bribe myself to just get going again...and I figure i want to get back to were I was and make sure the clothes I have fit properly...then I can coast for a bit....

by New Year I'd like to be 235....the lowest that I've been since the year 2000....
So wish me luck- keep on truckin'

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

was to scared to go in

I went to go back to WW to the parking lot and couldn't
go in- went to sandwich shop to have some dinner and then go back and
didn't go
saw one of the staff in the coffee shop and she was asking if I was
going and almost started to cry....whats going ON WITH MEEE!!!!

Monday, September 14, 2009

what have I been doing...

just when I think I've got myself back in control....and blow it....
the scale keeps climbing and I keep craving those bad bad foods that taste so good

whats been happening?
-started to get back on exercise bandwagon...then days go by like i've 'forgotten'
-pants are a bit tighter
-shirts a little bit snug
-little out of breath when I walk to the top of my hill
-arms are looking a bit flabbier then before
-scale is up 15pds.....

----what can I do...start eating proper and getting daily exercise
funny how its not rocket science....but its freekin hard

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

starting to get back in the game....

live is busy...and I think I've had enough of a binge/break to get back on the wagon, start feeling good....Iwent for a run this am with the doggie- my cardio has disappeared, however i still feel strong...and I timed my self from PJ's, to contacts in, exercise clothes on-to walking the dog and doing a WII Active workout--- about an hour--- want to try and integrate that into each day.... so we'll see :)

I've been off for a week and a half and first day back is tomorrow- could be a LONG day....

Fat Prison- seen on a couple different websites-

I want to tell you about a very unusual sort of prison. It's called Fat Prison. Why is it so unusual? Because it's completely voluntary.
No one sends us to Fat Prison, we send ourselves!

What's it like to be a fat prisoner? The rules are very strict. To begin with, each prisoner must wear regulation uniform. This consists of a baggy skirt or elasticated pants. Most prisoners pretend they don't mind walking around in this shapeless uniform, but secretly they hate it. They'd much rather walk down the street in a slim pair of jeans.
Exercise is strictly controlled Swimming or playing with children is forbidden. And no prisoner may walk more than a few yards at a time. The penalties for breaking this rule include sweating, shortness of breath, soreness and fatigue. After a few years without any sort of proper exercise, prisoners become so soft that the very idea of movement terrifies them. If you don't believe me, go up to a fat prisoner and suggest a nice long walk in the fresh air!
Everyday life The main feature of everyday life inside Fat Prison is tiredness. Prisoners carry lots of extra weight around on their bodies, so not surprisingly they suffer from chronic fatigue. Result? After doing their daily chores, most of them slump down exhausted in front of the TV.
Even when they allow themselves a night out, many prisoners find it difficult to enjoy themselves. They feel awkward about their shape so instead of mixing with other people they tend to sit in the corner with other fat prisoners.
Prison Mentality After many years of locking themselves away inside their Fat Prison, many prisoners develop a prison mentality. They lose confidence in themselves and their ability to "go straight". They look at slim people and think: "I'm never going to be like them!" They think they are doomed to stay in Fat Prison, forever. Result? They let themselves go completely.
Bad for Health Fat Prison is very bad for prisoners health. Don't forget, the greater our weight, the greater the strain on our joints and spine. And the fatter we grow, the harder our heart has to work to keep us going. No wonder so many fat prisoners get ill!
Depressing Fat Prison is a depressing experience, not only for the prisoners but also for their families. In fact, the children of fat prisoners often grow up to become prisoners themselves. It's a vicious cycle.
Question So why do so many people end up in Fat Prison? And even more important, why don't they leave once they discover how awful it is?
Answer Because they prefer to eat cookies, chocolate, potato chips, popcorn, doughnuts, fatty meat and creamy desserts. They know that this stuff makes them fat but they don't care. They'd rather go to prison than give up their regular mouthful of fat. *Some may have other reasons
Are you a fat prisoner? Have you locked yourself up in your own private Fat Prison? If so, here's some advice. Don't waste another day of your life in jail. Get out now!
All you have to do is stop eating junk and start eating properly and you can walk free tomorrow.
It may take a few months before your weight returns to normal, but your tiredness will lift immediately and within a week you'll feel ten times better. So what are you waiting for?Get out of your Fat Prison today and start really living!