Now the stress, anxiety seems like a thing of the past. The success of almost 6pds a week seems amazing to me. Motivated to keep going and to accept that I have 2events this weekend where lots of food is involved. And then get back on track Monday
Friday, February 20, 2015
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Well I successfully cleansed yesterday.... Well I don't know about success but I didn't eat any food!! Woke up at 515am for first ferry, spent 7hrs at the spa/hot tub/sauna/ and still managed to survive. Got super cranky, but kept with isasnacks and isadelights ...I think I had 1extra of each but since my day started 3hrs earlier, walked 40mins and was swimming lots I think it was ok. I dreamt about eating candy and crackers by accident last night in my dream. And of course I waited till I woke up alive today to send this text hehe. Anyways I'm going back to shakes today! Happy Sunday
Monday, February 9, 2015
someone suggested these would help my get thru my days....I'm taking notes :)
- Artichoke hearts
- Bamboo shoots
- Bean sprouts
- Brussels sprouts
- Beans (green, kidney, garbanzo)
- Greens (collard, kale, mustard, turnip)
- Pea pods
- Sugar snap peas
- Swiss chard
- Water chestnuts
- Cabbage (green, bok choy, Chinese)
- Salad greens (chicory, endive, escarole, iceberg lettuce, romaine, spinach, arugula, radicchio, watercress)
|Peach, canned in natural juice|
5 shake days...scared to death to do a cleanse day. Been following the shake day recommendations and I have been surviving. Still headaches in afternoon, feeling weak when working out, and a general tiredness pretty much all day....that mixed with hangry outbursts have not really made feel good about myself. Been following the rules...2 snacks (under 200cal) and 1 - 600cal meal (2x went over - 800 cal meal)
my mom says as she said goodbye--please don't starve yourself too long...
but I did manage to enjoy 2 meals that went over my calorie budget and realized that whatever I was eating was MUCH better then what I would normally be eating when Im home...watching my dad cook the sausage, eggs, hasbrowns and toast for my BF and his son...i drank my shake and felt kinda tough doing so.
now i gotta figure out this week if I will cleanse (only drink a liquid) or just to daily evening cleanse.
Friday, February 6, 2015
I split my am snack in 2. Had some like 10 and then 1045. And split lunch shake in 2 half before workout and half after... Had a too many calories for my dinner but that's what happens when your traveling and don't get to eat till 730 on BC ferries.
Wish me luck - in my hometown for the weekend visiting family.
Thursday, February 5, 2015
K....I'm having a REALLY REALLY HARD TIME on the program.... I lost my shit at work (hangry, light headed, shaky). Obsessed over my 3pm snack for 2 hrs cuz within 30mins of lunch shake I was hungry again. Of course I ended up working late, had coaching call so dinner was late and I juat spent 30mins crying/sobbing with Jason because I hate these feelings...well i hate obsession with food and need for it to function. The thoughts of never eating real food again terrify me...the headache and angry lash outs are scary.... Yes I'd like to loose some weight but I really don't know how sustainable this will be for me. I get so worked up about following it right but at the same time I don't believe I can keep it up. At least I'm at the gym now riding the stationary bike but secretly not working too hard cuz im worried I will pass out later. I am committed to keeping at this for at least a week to see if I can get over the intense feelings, side effects but at this point feeling really depressed and discouraged.
Started this post this morning and then apparently got sidetracked cuz I forgot my group leader call for my landmark education. That's another tool that I've been using to give me a different way to create the life ive been living and create amazing life with my awesome boyfriend. More on that another day hehe. Day 2 started off good woke up before my alarm well unfortunately I woke up at 2 a.m. 4 a.m. 5 a.m. and at 6 a.m. had my juice got ready had my shake and actually felt full after the shake its miracle!! Snack time waS better today and soon it will be lunch....
Big accomplishment surviving day 1...feeling ok for day 2...yay
I've been feeling a bit vulnerable with my crazily supportive boyfriend as we weigh and measure myself...I guess cuz its in his face how big I really am and how I actually like e in a world where I believe/think and visualize I'm thin and by exposing my real body I'm going to be found out that I'm really not as thin as I think. And I know I'm not really thin...but I do picture myself looking a certain way...in certain outfits and lately when I see pics I'm shocked and disgusted with what I see....and I'm sure my BF has been seeing me...all of me and loving me regardless but it was a big realization for me. Feeling exposed....soo from here its onward and upward... well actually downward and there is a chance to be a better person...lighter...stronger and complete.
Wednesday, February 4, 2015
Waiting for my 400-600 calorie diner to be warm.... It was hard, it was long... Only a mild headache so far. I did panic when I got back to my desk after my workout and started getting shaky... Had to have my snack a bit early.
Tomorrow will be easier
Something I'm learning about myself is I'm OBSESSED with food. The thought of just drinking my food and only a snack at 10am is stressing me out. I drove to work obsessing about food and lack thereof (almost in Panic attack mode complete with tears)...realizing that food was one of the only things in my child/young adulthood that I could actually control- I snuck it, I hid it....I got a job (at a fast food restaurant) so I could buy it...got my own car so I could eat it hidden away.
Previously all weight loss attempts have been with real food and willpower.... This time I'm trying something new. Wish me luck!
I heard some great great things about this program so I thought hey let's give it a shot. My 30 day system arrived!! Kinda like Christmas...could have been a bit confusing but I watched lots of YouTube videos and have a super coach...Shannon and my brother Matt!!
Links to the past
Fat Prison- seen on a couple different websites-
No one sends us to Fat Prison, we send ourselves!
What's it like to be a fat prisoner? The rules are very strict. To begin with, each prisoner must wear regulation uniform. This consists of a baggy skirt or elasticated pants. Most prisoners pretend they don't mind walking around in this shapeless uniform, but secretly they hate it. They'd much rather walk down the street in a slim pair of jeans.
Exercise is strictly controlled Swimming or playing with children is forbidden. And no prisoner may walk more than a few yards at a time. The penalties for breaking this rule include sweating, shortness of breath, soreness and fatigue. After a few years without any sort of proper exercise, prisoners become so soft that the very idea of movement terrifies them. If you don't believe me, go up to a fat prisoner and suggest a nice long walk in the fresh air!
Everyday life The main feature of everyday life inside Fat Prison is tiredness. Prisoners carry lots of extra weight around on their bodies, so not surprisingly they suffer from chronic fatigue. Result? After doing their daily chores, most of them slump down exhausted in front of the TV.
Even when they allow themselves a night out, many prisoners find it difficult to enjoy themselves. They feel awkward about their shape so instead of mixing with other people they tend to sit in the corner with other fat prisoners.
Prison Mentality After many years of locking themselves away inside their Fat Prison, many prisoners develop a prison mentality. They lose confidence in themselves and their ability to "go straight". They look at slim people and think: "I'm never going to be like them!" They think they are doomed to stay in Fat Prison, forever. Result? They let themselves go completely.
Bad for Health Fat Prison is very bad for prisoners health. Don't forget, the greater our weight, the greater the strain on our joints and spine. And the fatter we grow, the harder our heart has to work to keep us going. No wonder so many fat prisoners get ill!
Depressing Fat Prison is a depressing experience, not only for the prisoners but also for their families. In fact, the children of fat prisoners often grow up to become prisoners themselves. It's a vicious cycle.
Question So why do so many people end up in Fat Prison? And even more important, why don't they leave once they discover how awful it is?
Answer Because they prefer to eat cookies, chocolate, potato chips, popcorn, doughnuts, fatty meat and creamy desserts. They know that this stuff makes them fat but they don't care. They'd rather go to prison than give up their regular mouthful of fat. *Some may have other reasons
Are you a fat prisoner? Have you locked yourself up in your own private Fat Prison? If so, here's some advice. Don't waste another day of your life in jail. Get out now!
All you have to do is stop eating junk and start eating properly and you can walk free tomorrow.
It may take a few months before your weight returns to normal, but your tiredness will lift immediately and within a week you'll feel ten times better. So what are you waiting for?Get out of your Fat Prison today and start really living!