Thursday, February 5, 2015

Start of day 2

Started this post this morning and then apparently got sidetracked cuz I forgot my group leader call for my landmark education. That's another tool that I've been using to give me a different way to create the life ive been living and create amazing life with my awesome boyfriend. More on that another day hehe. Day 2 started off good woke up before my alarm well unfortunately I woke up at 2 a.m. 4 a.m. 5 a.m. and at 6 a.m. had my juice got ready had my shake and actually felt full after the shake its miracle!!  Snack time waS better today and soon it will be lunch....

Big accomplishment surviving day 1...feeling ok for day 2...yay

I've been feeling a bit vulnerable with my crazily supportive boyfriend as we weigh and measure myself...I guess cuz its in his face how big I really am and how I actually like e in a world where I believe/think and visualize I'm thin and by exposing my real body I'm going to be found out that I'm really not as thin as I think.  And I know I'm not really thin...but I do picture myself looking a certain certain outfits and lately when I see pics I'm shocked and disgusted with what I see....and I'm sure my BF has been seeing me...all of me and loving me regardless but it was a big realization for me.  Feeling exposed....soo from here its onward and upward... well actually downward and there is a chance to be a better person...lighter...stronger and complete.

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Fat Prison- seen on a couple different websites-

I want to tell you about a very unusual sort of prison. It's called Fat Prison. Why is it so unusual? Because it's completely voluntary.
No one sends us to Fat Prison, we send ourselves!

What's it like to be a fat prisoner? The rules are very strict. To begin with, each prisoner must wear regulation uniform. This consists of a baggy skirt or elasticated pants. Most prisoners pretend they don't mind walking around in this shapeless uniform, but secretly they hate it. They'd much rather walk down the street in a slim pair of jeans.
Exercise is strictly controlled Swimming or playing with children is forbidden. And no prisoner may walk more than a few yards at a time. The penalties for breaking this rule include sweating, shortness of breath, soreness and fatigue. After a few years without any sort of proper exercise, prisoners become so soft that the very idea of movement terrifies them. If you don't believe me, go up to a fat prisoner and suggest a nice long walk in the fresh air!
Everyday life The main feature of everyday life inside Fat Prison is tiredness. Prisoners carry lots of extra weight around on their bodies, so not surprisingly they suffer from chronic fatigue. Result? After doing their daily chores, most of them slump down exhausted in front of the TV.
Even when they allow themselves a night out, many prisoners find it difficult to enjoy themselves. They feel awkward about their shape so instead of mixing with other people they tend to sit in the corner with other fat prisoners.
Prison Mentality After many years of locking themselves away inside their Fat Prison, many prisoners develop a prison mentality. They lose confidence in themselves and their ability to "go straight". They look at slim people and think: "I'm never going to be like them!" They think they are doomed to stay in Fat Prison, forever. Result? They let themselves go completely.
Bad for Health Fat Prison is very bad for prisoners health. Don't forget, the greater our weight, the greater the strain on our joints and spine. And the fatter we grow, the harder our heart has to work to keep us going. No wonder so many fat prisoners get ill!
Depressing Fat Prison is a depressing experience, not only for the prisoners but also for their families. In fact, the children of fat prisoners often grow up to become prisoners themselves. It's a vicious cycle.
Question So why do so many people end up in Fat Prison? And even more important, why don't they leave once they discover how awful it is?
Answer Because they prefer to eat cookies, chocolate, potato chips, popcorn, doughnuts, fatty meat and creamy desserts. They know that this stuff makes them fat but they don't care. They'd rather go to prison than give up their regular mouthful of fat. *Some may have other reasons
Are you a fat prisoner? Have you locked yourself up in your own private Fat Prison? If so, here's some advice. Don't waste another day of your life in jail. Get out now!
All you have to do is stop eating junk and start eating properly and you can walk free tomorrow.
It may take a few months before your weight returns to normal, but your tiredness will lift immediately and within a week you'll feel ten times better. So what are you waiting for?Get out of your Fat Prison today and start really living!