Monday, August 4, 2008

Who is this unmotived-self sabotagin-binge eating girl??

man oh man how I've missed being on track---and the scale has missed it to... I'm not sure exactly how much I"ve gained but I am extremly disappointed with myself to let it get THIS out of hand.. I think its about a 5pound gain...I had this easily acheiveable summer goal of losing 10 pounds but not I"ve got 13 to go to meet it.... To sum up my time since my last post in a few words:
-golf injury- lead to no golfing/walking golf course- lead to disapointed/depressed feeling
-wento vancouver to look at new car for husband- lead to stressed feeling about money, and eating bad/yummy vancouver food
-Summer Sea Fest party at friends- lead to alcohol and food binge
-Went Running- SPRAINED MY ANKLE-- which has lead to barely any movement due to pain, depressed and a continuation of my bad habits.
-went to WW gained, went to grocery store to buy all 'good' food, did really well was totally motivated- then as days progressed veggeis started going rotten and then we left for vancouver
-Picked up MOther - in- law from Vancouver and spent a couple days playing tourist- which lead to bad eating and minor stress...

SO now, it is a stat holiday in my province...I have a extra day off to clean out the fridge, establish a plan and hopefully (its been 7 days since sprain) go out for a run or some type...

I realized in this time since my last post- I need this blog, to be accountable, to expressing my feelings to continue on my journey!!!

5 comments:

Amanda Daybyday said...

Keep going lady. You can do it!

Heather said...

hang in there....it happens. I bet the scale isnt as bad as you might think so give it a try. so often we think, I screwed up and theres no way that this could be good, but actually the scale can surprise you sometimes. just focus on what you need to do to get back on track, and slowly but surely you will be.

Cammy said...

You're back on track now, and that's the most important thing. Keep in mind that you can do upper body and core exercises even if you can't run or play golf. Consider it crosstraining. :)

I'm cheering for you!

Christa said...

Sorry to hear about your injuries. That can be discouraging but you sound determined to get on track and you will :)

Carolyn said...

we just gotta keep plugging, ya know? Eating out can be really realy bad too, unless we go to safe spots (for me, like BP or Swiss Chalet). Maybe try finding some safe spots when out? I hav a problem of treating every day likea 'special occasion' excuse, and eating at least one thing I shouldn't. We just need to see the day for what it really is - just another day!

Fat Prison- seen on a couple different websites-

I want to tell you about a very unusual sort of prison. It's called Fat Prison. Why is it so unusual? Because it's completely voluntary.
No one sends us to Fat Prison, we send ourselves!

What's it like to be a fat prisoner? The rules are very strict. To begin with, each prisoner must wear regulation uniform. This consists of a baggy skirt or elasticated pants. Most prisoners pretend they don't mind walking around in this shapeless uniform, but secretly they hate it. They'd much rather walk down the street in a slim pair of jeans.
Exercise is strictly controlled Swimming or playing with children is forbidden. And no prisoner may walk more than a few yards at a time. The penalties for breaking this rule include sweating, shortness of breath, soreness and fatigue. After a few years without any sort of proper exercise, prisoners become so soft that the very idea of movement terrifies them. If you don't believe me, go up to a fat prisoner and suggest a nice long walk in the fresh air!
Everyday life The main feature of everyday life inside Fat Prison is tiredness. Prisoners carry lots of extra weight around on their bodies, so not surprisingly they suffer from chronic fatigue. Result? After doing their daily chores, most of them slump down exhausted in front of the TV.
Even when they allow themselves a night out, many prisoners find it difficult to enjoy themselves. They feel awkward about their shape so instead of mixing with other people they tend to sit in the corner with other fat prisoners.
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Bad for Health Fat Prison is very bad for prisoners health. Don't forget, the greater our weight, the greater the strain on our joints and spine. And the fatter we grow, the harder our heart has to work to keep us going. No wonder so many fat prisoners get ill!
Depressing Fat Prison is a depressing experience, not only for the prisoners but also for their families. In fact, the children of fat prisoners often grow up to become prisoners themselves. It's a vicious cycle.
Question So why do so many people end up in Fat Prison? And even more important, why don't they leave once they discover how awful it is?
Answer Because they prefer to eat cookies, chocolate, potato chips, popcorn, doughnuts, fatty meat and creamy desserts. They know that this stuff makes them fat but they don't care. They'd rather go to prison than give up their regular mouthful of fat. *Some may have other reasons
Are you a fat prisoner? Have you locked yourself up in your own private Fat Prison? If so, here's some advice. Don't waste another day of your life in jail. Get out now!
All you have to do is stop eating junk and start eating properly and you can walk free tomorrow.
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