tummy feels empty

its the first time I've eaten within my points in about 7
months!!!!!!!!
just going to go to bed to ward off any bad food choices...
I've gained 20pds in 7mths...by not counting...I don't wanna go up
anymore...
I want to get back DOWN....

I'm outside the door of the WW mtg

I'm going inside and I'm facing the music
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today...

was good... had my normal high fibre cereal- fruit bar as snack...

planned to have a hamburger for lunch-- also purchased and ate a apple
fritter when I went to buy hamburgerbuns (got white instead of brown)

then I have some cookies...

then for diner 1.5 hamburgers.....and a swiss roll...

could i have stopped myself??? I don't know, I heard myself trying to
talk myself out of it....but did I listen??? umm NO

but I did go for a 20 min run tonight with the dog...but that FAR from
makes up for the bad eating
lets see what tomorrow brings

This is THE week....

I've got the fridge stocked with good veggies and fresh low fat meats etc....my hubby and I went for a run together on saturday, and a walk today...I am noticing in all kidns of ways the weight gain...little more flabby, clothes thighter etc...so ITS TIME...

I've been trying to bribe myself to just get going again...and I figure i want to get back to were I was and make sure the clothes I have fit properly...then I can coast for a bit....

by New Year I'd like to be 235....the lowest that I've been since the year 2000....
So wish me luck- keep on truckin'

was to scared to go in

I went to go back to WW tonight...got to the parking lot and couldn't
go in- went to sandwich shop to have some dinner and then go back and
didn't go
saw one of the staff in the coffee shop and she was asking if I was
going and almost started to cry....whats going ON WITH MEEE!!!!

what have I been doing...

just when I think I've got myself back in control....and blow it....
the scale keeps climbing and I keep craving those bad bad foods that taste so good

whats been happening?
-started to get back on exercise bandwagon...then days go by like i've 'forgotten'
-pants are a bit tighter
-shirts a little bit snug
-little out of breath when I walk to the top of my hill
-arms are looking a bit flabbier then before
-scale is up 15pds.....

----what can I do...start eating proper and getting daily exercise
funny how its not rocket science....but its freekin hard

starting to get back in the game....

live is busy...and I think I've had enough of a binge/break to get back on the wagon, start feeling good....Iwent for a run this am with the doggie- my cardio has disappeared, however i still feel strong...and I timed my self from PJ's, to contacts in, exercise clothes on-to walking the dog and doing a WII Active workout--- about an hour--- want to try and integrate that into each day.... so we'll see :)

I've been off for a week and a half and first day back is tomorrow- could be a LONG day....

258.8

oopps... so much for being on track....thats up almost 20 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gotta get it together, gotta get it together...

going down a dangerous path

of eating uncontrollable.....

it all started with my bootcamp obsession and my revved up metabolism...i was hungry all the time and I would eat anything I wanted because I was working out 'so hard' and
'burning lots of calories.' over compensating for my workouts...

then I just got lazy and then I was just self-destructive.....scared of succes

makes me frusterated to have this bump in the road....

Just tried on some pants to keep warm since it was a cold and rainy day here today and they are TIGHT....reason to panic and get back on the wagon....

Another reason to get my but in gear is that I have volunteered to work at WW each wednesday of this month....

anyways i have hidden hubbies candy and had him through out a couple of my other temptation foods in the house-- should be on a clean eating path now...



so tonight

ate 4 chocolate bars today....

didn't have lunch-- but ate lots of chocolate.....

 

bad- no willpower- going to boot camp tomorrow am

 

then a busy weekend ahead- Friday BBQ1, Saturday FleeMarket, BBQ2, to PR, Sunday "Bday" golf tourny, BBQ3 and home...then next week Thurs of to SEATTLE area....

sidelined with some hip pain....

grrrr... I've been feeling pain in my left hip since Jan...but havn't really listened to it untill this week.....  went to see the DR about my hip/knee problem...i was sent to get some xrays for him..then I went to see the Ortho-Bionomist and she did some stretches for my knee/hip and its feeling better- but she says I need to stay off it for 3-4 days.....

 

dr thought it may be a stress fracture....ortho-bionomist just figured my hip was rotated and stuck forward, which caused myleft leg to be longer then my right leg and my knee cap as been stuck.....--- all really weird to me.....BUT we'll see how it goes...

 

scale has stayed the same for a LONG time...with a little gain, havn't reported it one here as I'm in denial that I'm on a plateau struggle....

It was my birthday and I did what I wanted :)

haha....its been awhile since I posted, things have been good- just celebrated my 30th birthday on June1st....was truely a special day/days...had a couple of gathering with great friends and family and still have one more party on june 14th...   boot camp hasbeen great- running has been good too...went and did a 5km at science world vancouver on sunday....  I'm experiencing some pain in my left hip since I started running....but I'm going to start trying to take it a bit easier, its been REALLY hot lately which has been making it a little tough to exercise in the evenings......

 

I'm just going to do boot camp 2x a week for the month of june... I was a little disapointed as I am at my first 'official' plataeu.... I've been in 10pd range the last 3 months and its getting FRUSTERATING.... I'm trying to figure out whats going on and how to get through it- but Its a work in progress....

 

anyways hope all is well!

Hmm kids?

All My life i've said I didn't want to have kids, told My now husband that when we were just dating and My parents that for a long time aswell....

I was confident I didn't want to hassle, the pain, the commitment, the responsibility, the diapers, the Stress, the cost or the burden

i was confident I didn't need the love, the reward and all those positive feelings that come along with them....

Now 'everyone' is doing it....I know like 30 people that have babies/are pregnant etc

I see the joy, the excitment, the pride, the happiness...

Am I going to miss out?

Can hubby and I handle kids? He can't even commit to walking the dog on a regular basis...what about a child.....???

Hmmmm. Is it peer pressure ? Or interest ?

?????

But for now I will go to boot camp this morning and keep losing weight so if we do deceide we are taking that step I can be happy and healthy...

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1/2 way in bootcamp

Wheni signed up it was for 4 weeks we ended the 2nd week today and I look forward to 2 more weeks.....however me with My attention deficiet can't just enjoy the moment I'm always think like 2 steps ahead!!
Should I. Run? Should I aquafit? Should I go to the gym? Should I sign up again??? Hmmmm each is good but what will hold My attention the best and give the best results

One thing i've noticed sbouky bootcamp is that I work out so hard I'm hungry alllllll the time which leads me to eat, and often they are bad choices...I,ve started packing snacks with me but its still leading me away from ww

Anyways gotta go

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wtf.....up 4.8!?!?!?!

gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr......

atleast I didn't cry..... wow- I've been looking on the internet and it sounds as though I could possibly be like some people when they start exercising strenuously to have a large gain....it may be getting towards TOM--- or it could be some bad eating? but 5 pds???
WOW

all I want to to is barf and exercise...bad I know but a little sad about the whole thing

ups and downs....

I'm not really sure what is going on with me...i was SUPER sleepy today- had to drag myself out of bed- was SUPER hungry all morning....then went for lunch had a chicken ceaser wrap and fries-bad bad bad....then dragged myself around all afternoon....came home binged on 1pt herseys chocolate bars, 2 kraft cheese slices, 2 fibre one bars (that makes 4 for the day)....2 cups of ice cream ...then had a veggie sub from subway....then another bowl of ice cream.... bad bad bad..... soo- go from a great day to a bad day.... I did however go for a walk with my doggie- and finally now at 9pm my muscles are getting sore from yesterday---just in time for boot camp tomorrow--- hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

I heart bootcamp...

just got back from second session today....a little fatigued but feeling great about it. Its an awesome workout and its really cool to be able to do the stuff...i've often been the kid in the back of the gym class- 'the fat kid' - the last picked for teams - but i'm doing the bootcamp and doing pretty good. I find the push-ups hard and the mountain climbers...but other then that I love it....just awaiting the 'pain' of tomorrow...

 

things are good...

I've been slacker-iffic on the posting lately.....things have been going good on the exercise front...I'm still no further ahead on the weight loss then about 3 weeks ago but I've shed my mistakes and am now moving forward....

Joined a bootcamp and have gotten motivated trying different things.... the camp is fun- lots of intervals and different stations- using muscles I havn't felt in a LONG TIME.... which is a super duper great thing :)

went 2 times on friday and may actually go again toniht!!- figure if I was on the biggest loser I'd be working out 8 hrs a day so 2 cant hurt if I can acutally fit it in :)

I bought a journal today- I've been thinking about starting to keep one- like a little book of motivation- wanted to put some pictures in it, excerpts from my facebook wall of all the comments I've been getting- quotes and sayings that would help keep me going- but I just sat down to start prepping the information for inside the book and I really wonder if I should or not....................... my thoughts were this should be a bit of a journal for me (if I can post more frequently) and how many times have I had bulletin boards or magazine clips around-- did they motivate me? did I even look at them or did it provide any guidance or inspiration??????

so not sure what to do- I think I'll do some laundry and then get back to crackin the journel and see what I think then :)

hope all is well out there in blog land

I was FASTER.....

05/08- 9:27/km-- 8K
05/09- 7:56/km-- 8K Same Race Course...

woo woo!!! yipppeee

Now just want to get FASTER....and shed some more weight- I feel like im at a standstill, hoping that I can kick my butt in gear with boot camp starting tomorrow....

focus on food

trying to look on the bright side...

that night I went to bed early ( my little pity party last post)..... and went for a walk in the AM with my dog and my next couple days have been much better!!!

wanting to look on the bright side of things---- Since last year I have made some major improvements in my running....

05/08- 9:27/km-- 8K
**insert improved time here on Sunday....**

06/08- 8:45/km --5K
03/09- 8:12/km --5k **improved by 33 seconds per KM**

04/09- 8:27/km --10K
2001- 8:33/km-- 10K
2003- 10:35/km-- 10K **improved 2001 time by 6 seconds and 2003 time by 2 mins 8 secs per KM**

whats wrong with me...

I've lost it- my motivation, my focus and my discipline...
went to WW tonight- up 1.4 pds....ggrrrrr

wow I might actually have to start 'following' the program--- SOOON

I need some time to get me head in the game but I want ot journal this week and get back the good habits... i lost them...

proof--sun run 2009

little bit of a white lie with the shirt....but I'm close and still going...

SUN RUN COMPLETE

10k time 1:24:30, 8:27/km, Place: 29143/58,000ish

it was a great day, the rain held off...and I felt great!!! in a random coincidence I met up with a great girl I crossed paths with at a previous run and we chatted and ran the last half of the run-- she was motivating for me to keep going and it made it alot easier to finish strong!!

me and hubby before the race!!

my totally not WW_friendly victory dinner....

yahhhoooo..... I'm so proud of hubby and myself- looking forward to doing some cross training as running has been a little hard on my body---but can't wait for the next race...

it was amazing to be part of such a HUGE crowd!!

LOST 28inches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!! YYIIippppeee

as I took the time to de-junk some old clothes from the closet, I came across my mesureing tape and postit notes with measurements on them. So I took some measurements today and then input them and the old ones into my computer spreadsheet and checked them all out... I've lost....
2.5 inchs on my right thigh
5.5 from bellybutton
6 from my hips
6 from my bust
1 from bicep
4.5 from ribs
2.5from my calf!!!
YYYIIiipppppeeee
WW and running works for me!!!

1 more training run till the SUN RUN...

well its been a heck of a 13week training program....husband has somewhat enjoyed it but has been battling major illness's along the way--- only one more run untill we hit the road with 58,000 other runners in downtown vancouver!!!! can't wait....very exciting

didn't make it to ww last week- however pretty sure I'm down another pound or 2- will find out wednesday....

things are good

was pretty sick last week-however made it for my training runs and then had a hard run today
Run 10, w1, run 20 w 1 run 30w 1...the route was pretty hilly and about 8.8km...so I was exhausted- now just chillin and doing laundry

this week at WW my WI was great and I'm officially down 64.4- woo hoo
yipppe

take Care

did a 5 k and bought LULULEMON PANTS!!

wooo wooo as my reward for improving my pace from 845 to 812 a km I treated myself to some size 12 crop pants!!! I never thougth I would be able to buy something that FIT THERE!!
woo woo woo
other things in life are good....hope its good for you

Survived BIG RUN- Run 10mins walk 1 4 times...

Well life has been interesting- been on a junk food binge, dog had surgery (TPLO surgery- Blown crucial legament), I'm sick...and blah blah blah....
however I thought I would post- for the sake of posting... I'm home from a big run, relaxing with the injured/recovering doggie and cuddled up on the couch... hope all is well- I've missed WW meetings- because I've been busy however I'm pretty sure I've been staying the same with all the running with the junk food...

must remember to post even when times aren't good

well the running is going REALLY well- however the eating and weightloss not so much- last week I gained 2 at the WI and this week I lost 1.8....so Almost back on track- have 2 sets of houseguest coming this weeked so eating will bea challenge- and because one group has to get to YVR at 12noon we'll miss our intraining session...MUST DO IT SUNDAY NIGHT...we jump to run 5 walk 1 so it will be tough to push ourselves through it...but must be done!!!

hope all you bloggers out there are doing well
TTYL
C

DOWN 1 --- yipppeee

slow and steady wins the race....
I'm planning ontrackin my food intake ALL WEEK...I'd like to have 1 really clean week (i seem to be leting myself cheat- and I know I won't be able to get away with that forever)
Tonight I'll do my 3rd training run this week- which should be good

HYC CHeck-In

things are going relativley well- I'm finding it tough to want to journel and track my eating lately- however I think its sorta brainwashed into me points and how many I can have etc...

the running is feeling good, and the changes in my body have been encouraging...

I'm hoping to post a loss Wednesday night at WW maybe just 1pd but 1 in the right direction :)

pants were falling off!

went for a quick run tonight just to get the dog out of the house- shes been moping for days- anyways as I was running pants that used to be so 'tight i hope nobody sees me' are now baggy and sliding off while running!! woo woo
small victory :)

feeling sore....

today we went for our group run in the SNOW!!! it was soooooo nice yesterday but today icky snow.... I took the dog to the vet and she has a sore leg (pulled muscle) so she can't run with us for awhile... so shes very depressed moping around the house....
running in the snow/slush was tough- slippery and covered the uneven terrain...
just watching the first season of LOST on dvd-- supposed to be just before the superbowl- but now wer are a little addicated and not sure if we will turn it off at game time!!!
bye for now

Feeling GOOD

Sun is shining..lost anouth .8 on wed, did my 3 training runs all is good
today heading to bank, vet (maggie has sore leg), grocery shopping and then out for dinner with some work friends...
should be a good day- then rest up for running tomorrow AM with the group...I love weekends!

week 2 of sun run training!

went really well- getting up at 8:30am on a Sunday to go run is a little tough, but got invited over to a friends for breakfast after so taht was good....not very low in points but good :)

Todays run was 7 times of running 2mins and walking 2mins... went really well...I'm nursing a hip injury?-- my hip hurts on the left side in a 6inch section i'm trying to stretch it when possible but its achin a bit today...

anyways hope your sunday is as sunny as mine :)

down 2 for total of 60.2!!!

woo woo I was pretty happy about that today- I have been on holidays, dealt with christmas and busy time at work... I know after my cruise I was up about 5 pounds... but was able to take it off and a couple extra with it :) I'm looking forward to the weeks to come, tonight I went to curling which was fun, and I went running last night with hubby... tomorrow I plan to go again after work.... I really want to concentrate on journalling this week as I seem to be slackin off on that- however I'm pretty sure after being on the programs for 4 years all together that I know what I'm doing and how many points = succes...however it would be great to be really accountable for this week....

hope every one out there is having a good week!

I LOVE my Nike + IPOD

on my goodness do I love it :) tracks all kinds of great data on my workouts (see gadget in side bar)---I can't beleive what a great invention it is....does anyone else out there have one?

Basically its a sensor you attach to your shoe and a gadget you plug into your ipod that tracks the distance you've travelled, plays music and talks to you, measures calories burned and tells you your pace... a really great tool for motivation and tracking....I

once you have the sensor and the plug-in(not required for new iphones and ipod touches) the Nikeplus website is free were you can set goals, join chalenges etc...anycase- i have to say it is pretty much the coolest thing I've see in awhile (however I havn't got to experience the 'coolness' of the WII Fit)

anyways is anyone from here already on the nikeplus website? is so check out my 100km for 100pds to lose challenge :)

today- my HUSBAND and I are learning to Run 10k

Sunday- 8:15am WOW-- I'm so excited, I brought hom the flyer for the program and he was interested- its basically $135 for 3 months of Sunday morning training sessions with a personal trainer/running coach- includes sign-up fee for Vancouvers Sun Run, a coupon for some gear at a local running store, 2 shirts and the training program. I'm REALLY hoping hubby enjoys it, I've done this program before (last summer) you do interval training (starting run 1min walk 4mins etc) 3 times a week..and by the end- in theory you should be able to complete the 10 K in good health... I'll keep you posted how it goes :)

kinda feel down today...

I was all excited to get organized and dejunk-ified this weekend and I have found myself ran out of steam.... my body is unhappy being back on program, while grocery shopping I almost passed out, then came home and started cutting up the veggies for salsa and sliced my finger pretty bad... ate a good lunch (only 6points- 2 WW tortilas, black beans, lettuce, salsa) then came upstairs and after an hour an laid on the bed- and all I could think was 'all I wanna do is eat, all i wanna do is eat' so after hiding upstairs for a little while- I got up the energy to go for a walk...which was a good thing... I started wearing my pedometer again today...however after grocery shopping, bopping around the house and a walk i'm only up to 5400 steps....far from the 10,000 steps a day recommended... we'll see how the rest of the day goes-maybe another walk is in order... I'just updated some pics on my other blog- as a year end review....

Tata4now

Last Years Goals etc....

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008---my new years resolutions!

I resolve to ... re-learn how to play piano (after a 12 year hiatus) - tried once
I resolve to ... do more good deeds! --never did? I don' think
I resolve to ... spend more time/stay better connected with family & friends * in process
I resolve to ... not spend as much time on Facebook! *HOORAY
I resolve to ... update my Blog more frequently *did for a while then stopped
I resolve to ... not let work stress me out so much * in process
I resolve to ... be more active and healthy *HOORAY*

Goals for Healthy Living Challenge- 2008
Lose and maintain 75 pounds --not quite lost 40 from 295-255
Exercise 4 days a week -- 2-3
Exercise for min of 20 mins each time- increasing to 40mins by Dec. -- was 35-45 mins
Learn not to "romanticize" food. My husband often tells me its all I think about- landmark locations by resataurants, reminese about trips by the food we ate. etc *** NOT SURE HOW TO STOP- STILL A PROBLEM FOR ME
Celebrate the little things/enjoy the journey(started this already- set up a secondary blog for my Non-Scale Victories in life- you'll see the link off my main page) ***yes
Stick to my new years resolutions that impact my whole life- not just weight loss * not really

Hmm ok... new goals ??
Short Term: 3 days a week, 30+mins each time (even if its just a walk or 2hrs of curling)

• based on 3 days a week * 52 weeks that means I would like to exercise 156 times- new tracker for that (I'm behind by a week so I gotta speed up)

Medium Term: 30pds by 30 birthday
Daily: Follow Plan, Journel, Water

would like to finish up some of those things listed above.....
Looking forward to a weekend at home after all the travelling , doing some cleaning, reorganizing grocery shopping, curling etc...

Hope yours is a good one :)

I'm Back....

Well its been a LONG time... the cruise was awesome, I made it home fro 8 days and hubby surprised me with another trip...so there has been lots of vacation eating and christmas eating the past month or so.... SO here I am a couple pounds heavier- ready to kick butt on the new year. I've set a goal for myself of losing 30pds by my 30 birthday this year (June 1) so that is my target for now...that would bring the total weight loss to approx 80pds!!!!!

Hopefully this weekend I'm going to get sometime to do a year in review, pull up my old new years resolutions and evaluate how I did...

If anyone is still out there great....if not I hope to find you again :)
Make it a great day!