Down 11.9 pds

Now the stress, anxiety seems like a thing of the past.  The success of almost 6pds a week seems amazing to me.  Motivated to keep going and to accept that I have 2events this weekend where lots of food is involved. And then get back on track Monday

1st cleanse

Well I successfully cleansed yesterday.... Well I don't know about success but I didn't eat any food!!    Woke up at 515am for first ferry, spent 7hrs at the spa/hot tub/sauna/ and still managed to survive.  Got super cranky, but kept with isasnacks and isadelights ...I think I had 1extra of each but since my day started 3hrs earlier, walked 40mins and was swimming lots I think it was ok.  I dreamt about eating candy and crackers by accident last night in my dream. And of course I waited till I woke up alive today to send this text hehe.  Anyways I'm going back to shakes today!  Happy Sunday

Lost 6.8pds

Sooooo excited... Happy

Low Glycemic Veggies

http://www.doctoroz.com/article/low-glycemic-vegetable-list

someone suggested these would help my get thru my days....I'm taking notes :)

Use our low-glycemic vegetable list to start your journey to a healthier you:

• Artichokes
• Artichoke hearts
• Asparagus
• Bamboo shoots
• Bean sprouts
• Broccoli
• Brussels sprouts
• Cauliflower
• Celery
• Cucumber
• Daikon
• Eggplant
• Leeks
• Lentils
• Beans (green, kidney, garbanzo)
• Greens (collard, kale, mustard, turnip)
• Mushrooms
• Okra
• Onions
• Pea pods
• Peppers
• Radishes
• Rutabaga
• Squash
• Sugar snap peas
• Swiss chard
• Tomato
• Water chestnuts
• Watercress
• Zucchini
• Cabbage (green, bok choy, Chinese)
• Salad greens (chicory, endive, escarole, iceberg lettuce, romaine, spinach, arugula, radicchio, watercress)

I wonder if the fruits would work too??

low GI
Cherries	22
Plums	24
Grapefruit	25
Peaches	28
Peach, canned in natural juice	30
Apples	34
Pears	41
Dried Apricots	32
Grapes	43
Coconut	45
Coconut Milk	41
Kiwi Fruit	47
Oranges	40
Strawberries	40

survived a weekend road trip

went to visit family this weekend and tried to maintain this new way of 'eating' while I was there... 

5 shake days...scared to death to do a cleanse day. Been following the shake day recommendations and I have been surviving. Still headaches in afternoon, feeling weak when working out, and a general tiredness pretty much all day....that mixed with hangry outbursts have not really made feel good about myself. Been following the rules...2 snacks (under 200cal) and 1 - 600cal meal (2x went over - 800 cal meal)

my mom says as she said goodbye--please don't starve yourself too long...
but I did manage to enjoy 2 meals that went over my calorie budget and realized that whatever I was eating was MUCH better then what I would normally be eating when Im home...watching my dad cook the sausage, eggs, hasbrowns and toast for my BF and his son...i drank my shake and felt kinda tough doing so.

now i gotta figure out this week if I will cleanse (only drink a liquid) or just to daily evening cleanse.

Day 3 much better

I split my am snack in 2. Had some like 10 and then 1045. And split lunch shake in 2 half before workout and half after... Had a too many calories for my dinner but that's what happens when your traveling and don't get to eat till 730 on BC ferries.

Wish me luck - in my hometown for the weekend visiting family.

F -ing day 2...*spit on floor*

K....I'm having a REALLY REALLY HARD TIME on the program.... I lost my shit at work (hangry, light headed, shaky).  Obsessed over my 3pm snack for 2  hrs cuz within 30mins of lunch shake I was hungry again. Of course I ended up working late, had coaching call so dinner was late and I juat spent 30mins crying/sobbing with Jason because I hate these feelings...well i hate obsession with food and need for it to function.  The thoughts of never eating real food again terrify me...the headache and angry lash outs are scary.... Yes I'd like to loose some weight but I really don't know how sustainable this will be for me.  I get so worked up about following it right but at the same time I don't believe I can keep it up.  At least I'm at the gym now riding the stationary bike but secretly not working too hard cuz im worried I will pass out later.   I am committed to keeping at this for at least a week to see if I can get over the intense feelings, side effects but at this point feeling really depressed and discouraged.   

Start of day 2

Started this post this morning and then apparently got sidetracked cuz I forgot my group leader call for my landmark education. That's another tool that I've been using to give me a different way to create the life ive been living and create amazing life with my awesome boyfriend. More on that another day hehe. Day 2 started off good woke up before my alarm well unfortunately I woke up at 2 a.m. 4 a.m. 5 a.m. and at 6 a.m. had my juice got ready had my shake and actually felt full after the shake its miracle!!  Snack time waS better today and soon it will be lunch....

Big accomplishment surviving day 1...feeling ok for day 2...yay

I've been feeling a bit vulnerable with my crazily supportive boyfriend as we weigh and measure myself...I guess cuz its in his face how big I really am and how I actually like e in a world where I believe/think and visualize I'm thin and by exposing my real body I'm going to be found out that I'm really not as thin as I think.  And I know I'm not really thin...but I do picture myself looking a certain way...in certain outfits and lately when I see pics I'm shocked and disgusted with what I see....and I'm sure my BF has been seeing me...all of me and loving me regardless but it was a big realization for me.  Feeling exposed....soo from here its onward and upward... well actually downward and there is a chance to be a better person...lighter...stronger and complete.

Looong day...hunger

Waiting for my 400-600 calorie diner to be warm.... It was hard, it was long... Only a mild headache so far.  I did panic when I got back to my desk after my workout and started getting shaky... Had to have my snack a bit early. 

Tomorrow will be easier

Isolean Shake

Hmmmmm no ice in the freezer this morning...so a bit chalky and definitely a protein shake but tasteful.  1 scoop Chocolate and 1 scoop vanilla.  I'm thinking fill my belly and keep my full till 10am please please please pretty please.

Something I'm learning about myself is I'm OBSESSED with food. The thought of just drinking my food and only a snack at 10am is stressing me out.  I drove to work obsessing about food and lack thereof (almost in Panic attack mode complete with tears)...realizing that food was one of the only things in my child/young adulthood that  I could actually control- I snuck it, I hid it....I got a job (at a fast food restaurant) so I could buy it...got my own car so I could eat it hidden away.

I'm stubborn so I'm hoping that with the realization that i"m obsessed and it controls me in so many ways that I can beat the demon and start fresh.

isagenix. AM wake up call

This morning.....excited but also thinking.... What the hell am I doing....am I going to starve..... I love. Love. Love. My food can I really do this??

first taste of ionix is there...tasted pretty darn good...hooray...off to too good start.

New way new day,

Today is a new day...a new way...an Isagenix way.
Previously all weight loss attempts have been with real food and willpower.... This time I'm trying something new.   Wish me luck!

I heard some great great things about this program so I thought hey let's give it a shot.   My 30 day system arrived!!   Kinda like Christmas...could have been a bit confusing but I watched lots of YouTube videos and have a super coach...Shannon and my brother Matt!!