Sunday, April 20, 2008

So since my reality check WI...i've been doing pretty well trying to get back on track...but its weird how fast you get out of your 'good' ways, I've found myself suggesting bad food choices etc when the options have come up, wanting to hit the drive thru on a busy day etc...but overall I think I'm winning.... Unfortunatly I have to travel for work from Wed AM to Sat AM- living in a small community there is only 1 WW meting wed night, so today I will commit to finding on in Victoria where I'll be spending 3 days....

There was some questions in my comments about how things were going (in regards to my meltdown before V-cay) so here is the personal life update..... Hubby and I have had many great conversations about my needs, his needs, what we can do to meet those needs etc etc....we are working on it...I've also started taking an anti-depressent which I'm not sure what effect its having on my yet.... but also had my first visit to a councellor on Friday....the Counsellor wasn't all the excited that I was on the anti-d's however said to keep taking if I wanted...I began to spill my life to her in the 1hour session we had...we are meeting againg in 2 weeks and in the meantime I'm to work on "un-winding" and de-stressing and doing things I enjoy doing and also trying to "be present" I have a real issue with being soo busy I don't pay attention to my husband or listen to an employee cuz I'm always thinking forward to the next item on the list... which in turn stresses me out.... so I'm a work in progress...

Hubby had to go to vancouver yesterday for a workshop so today is our first day off together since vcay-- so I better stop blogging and go be a good wife and hang out and chat....

I'll be in touch_ I'm slowly making my way to all you "commenters" a greatly appreciate that you check in on me!!

*hugs* to all
Carleen

8 comments:

Poonie said...

Glad to hear things are looking positive again. Keep your eye on the goal and keep looking forward hon.

*hugs*

Linds said...

Glad to hear that things are going better for you. And as for the weight gained on your v-cay... I wouldn't worry about it... how many times a year do you get a good holiday like that? Enjoy it, and move on...haha my moto anyways!

Hopefully all goes well on your anti-depressants... how long are they going to give it before they take you off if you're not seeing anything? I've been finding that I notice a big difference now that the sun is out more... lol I think I should just skip winter all together and move to florida!!!

It's great to be back... thanks for checking in on me!

Scale Junkie said...

Glad to hear you're taking action to find a WW meeting and to work on things with hubby. I'm sending good thoughts your way!

Heather said...

glad to hear you are getting back on track. its always so hard when youve been off the wagon, but you are doing great,and pretty soon it will feel like second nature again to reach for the healthy choices.

Carolyn said...

I'm glad you're doing better. Anti-d's have had nothing but bad experiences with the people I love, but they can help when they are prescribed properly. But just remember that what they can do (and they can take up to 6 bloody months to kick in, btw) is numb you, not fix you. I'm glad to hear you're talking to someone.. that can help so much!!!
((HUGS))
You're one tough cookie!

40 by 40 said...

Do you think the Anti-D had anything to do with the weight gain? It's great that you are talking it all out with someone..it will be very helpful. Good luck and you sound like you are in a much better place...which is GREAT!!!

Jewel said...

Just wanted to let you know that I enjoy reading your blog. Thanks for being so honest. Also, you look great! Keep up the good work :)

Lady Vea said...

Hang in there girl, it is a long row to hoe, but we will all be here for you!

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I want to tell you about a very unusual sort of prison. It's called Fat Prison. Why is it so unusual? Because it's completely voluntary.
No one sends us to Fat Prison, we send ourselves!

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Question So why do so many people end up in Fat Prison? And even more important, why don't they leave once they discover how awful it is?
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