thanks for the support....

I appreciate all the kind comments on the last post-- you are all right....I don't need to keep this secret- but I don't really have any "friends" here yet- I just moved here 6 mths ago and work so much that the only people I have met are work aquaintances...I think once I can get my major construction project (12.8million dollar arena/community centre) finished and opened (fingers crossed for Feb 15th) I should have some more time to branch out.....

The close friends I do have have heard me mention before that I was "trying to loose weight" becuase we only talk on the phone/facebook they don't really need to know untill I've got some great pics etc.....

So as for censoring my blog on things I say...because this job and my last job were in local government- I have had to watch what I say only because I'm paid for by the taxpayers blah blah blah...so the work venting may have to be at a minimun...I've made my locations etc a bit more annoymous (sure wish I could spell that word- is is right?)

in any case I will tell how my day REALLy was...oh my goodness....we'll we're trying to finalize our budgets for operating the new recreation facilities in this region....and we're like 400,000 over what they predicted 2 yrs ago....so we're trying to scrimp and save and justify and adjust and I'm soooooo freeking sick of excel documents... one of my other challenges is that I'm the only girl in the management team (4 others, male 3-50+, 1- 40+) so I end up doing the "skirt" work...usually coordiating the presentations and entering the data from the discussions...which I don't mind cuz I'm a little bit of a control freak!!! ANYWAYs its been very overwhelming and today the meeting when from 8am-12:30pm and all I had to eat was 2points of weight control oatmeal....man was I cranky....then I had to speed off to the pool I manage to enter into a discussion about staff scheduling and how we'll fill a mat leave posting in a place where there aren't very many lifeguards to begin with and how my aquatic coordinators want to stay with a 4 day work week...then I sped back to the office to compile the budget discussions in to 1 fullyl inked functional excel documetn...which I sent to my house to proof before sendign to the treasurer to be scrutinized in our afternoon meeting tomorriw....

grrr--- all I want to do is play on WW boards, facebook and blogs!! but I've gotta work....

in anycase I'll be procrasinating so hopefully I can visit some of your blogs this evening...

I finished off my day with a 6inch turkey sub from subway and 4 timbits- my points are gone and I'm ready for bed!!
Chow for now !!

My blog....

I've been debating what to write all day- I've spent the day cleaning, taking breaks to check other fellow challenger blogs- I've avoided 'proper' exercise all day....
My current WL journey is pretty much a secret from all people that I see/spend time with/work with etc....its not that I want it to be secret- But I find it hard to tell people cuz I'm still afraid of failing....so i've not been telling anyone (except DH and some family)...is that healthy? the odd person knows- because they have noticed..
Now I'm even being guarded about what I want to say here- I'm almost nervous that there is so many people reading and checking out my blog-- what if its someone i know and they report back to my boss or people in my town--- is it possible? should I worry? should I try to be more annoymous?

ahhh what to do- this is supposed to be a place for me to share my journey but at the same time I'm censoring how I really feel sometimes....

so in the meantime, I'll keep blogging....but thats always in the back of my mind...

nothing to say?

I've talked myself out by visiting lots of blogs and commenting today...I've also spent my day adding all my challenger buddies into google reader...with the people I had in there before I'm up to 47 blogs...I worried I'm missing people(espeically those on the easter challenge)... amoungst being a internet addict today, I healthy grocery shopped, walk the dog, made fruit salad, stayed within my points...trying to rest and relax as its going to be a busy 45-50hr week.....no exciting plans except for WI on Wed at my WW meeting....hope everyone has a great week!

if there's nothing posted here...

then check my NSV blog.... I'd just like to thank all the new people for stopping by my blog! Its kinda fun to know people are actually reading :)

Also I've "unlocked" my photo page for the next little while--I didn't like the idea of just ANYone seeing my scary pics so if your interested click here

To those on the Shannon's Easter Challenge- I've ben doing my best to visit all of your blogs but some of the links aren't working for my computer- so if you feel left out I havn't made an comments- drop my a comment here and link and I'll book mark you!

Off to walk the DOGGIE!

also I have a post below- that is discussing perception of weight vs sizes....i'm not trying to offend any one- but take a peek if you'd like to

soo...we survived!! got home last night at 12:36am so in total the travel took almost 4 hrs (ferry was late, we were in the line up early, road slightly slippery-drove slow)......however very hectic from our perspective it was fun and nice to spend time with family....glad we could make it this year!!

Very Happy its back to normal today---- I could use some normalicy, DH and I were deceiding yesterday to stay one more day or get out of there on the last ferry last night- we left and I"m glad, I finally said to him, I need toget back on and back on track!!! Going to have a protein shake for breakfast this AM...start my detox :) Christmas was fun but really glad to get back to routine.....

not good news this AM from the scale.... its registering that Im up- way up --its giving me the error message which means over 300!!!! (my scale is usually 3 pds heavier then WI) so that would be 11ish pounds up... follow me on my journey to lose it before my next weigh in...grrrr..I had no rules- i never though I wouldn't gain weight....but I'm going to work my BUTT off to get it off...
anyways today DH is going to vancouver to buy his new cell phone- I'm not going cuz I need to re-group and loose some weight!

The festivities were good- I got spoiled and had interesting times with the family....got a new digital camera and lots of other goodies.. my favorite live-inperson weught loss inspiration was at our christmas eve party....the pic below is of Shannon- who I have more fun with then anyone else in recent years- tons of fun, lots of energy, likes to have jello-shooters and belt out KAREOKEE untill the wee hours of the morning...and she used to be "fat" like mid-200's....now as you can see she is just little-has been lifetime for about 6 years, its always very motivating to see/hang out with her...

hope Santa was good to you

let the holidays begin....

for me its finally the start of the holiday season- I'm done work and I'm heading "home" to my parents with DH and Doggie for 5 days...today I will be doing some last minute shopping/wrapping and packing...and maybe some housework so the place is clean for our return onthe 27th..... I havn't been able to get my eating on track since my Wed set back....but I guess i have 2 weeks to do so- I have no meeting untill Jan 2....

So we are going to be busy while in Powell River
23rd- 2pm go up mountain and sleigh ride, have weiner roast
24th- visit friends father in hospitals
visit friend and her boys at there house
have dinner at step sisters
go to Kareokee/Guitar Hero party at brother and sister-in-law
25th- wake up at dads
go to moms for breakfast
back to dads for dinner

26th- SHOPPING
Go to Uncle Jimmys for Visit
Have dinner with mom's side of the family at Uncle Eds

27th- get the heck out of there and go home to relax and back to work on the 28th

hope everyone is doing well....take care and have a safe and happy holiday!!!

inspired my Scale junkie- here is my christmas poochie

Sunday- christmas coordinating day!!

good morning everyone....
my plan-- to have a good OP day- going grocery shopping so to have a productive week- next Sunday heading home for the holidays...so that could be interesting- hoping to pull off a 2.4 pd loss on wed- so gotta be really good the next couple of days!!!

Must get the last of the christmas cards in the mail today....and the last few christmas gifts organized. I'm still stamping calendars for gifts!!! I was going to put it off then I realized that they are all printed with 2008 dates so if I don't get crackin' they'll be no use to anyone- pressures on- stamping oct, nov, dec, jan, feb, march, april, may last night so just the rest of the year to go!!!

Take Care

GRRRR monday... GRRR bad self control...

So I basked in the glory/enjoyment of a great weekend with Friends...but reality hit when I stepped on the scale for a reality check...my friend has stopped breast feeding her little guy and had her first couple drinks since getting pregnant... we ate and partied a little and this morning i stepped on my scale it registerd up 7 pds....I'm hoping that is mostly water and I'm going to kick it in the butt....but i was super shocked.....

my mom came back with me for a visit- she has gone shopping this AM- we are meeting for lunch- I'm going to have a spinach salad with chicken- no bread, just water....and a responsible dinner....

I was SOOO pumped up and motivated on thursday what happened? I even caught myself with the little devil voice inside of me, talking me out of Subway to have McD's or getting a chips and a sugar pop at the gas station instead of water and gum.... I fell for it and made some bad choices, but what gets me is I have the best intentions but it all goes sideways...

must get back to work, need to focus on budget this AM-- hope everyone is doin' what they want to do!!

Down 0.6

grrr...ohwell I wasn't OP all last week- just 3 days so I guess I need to count my blessings....
Had my normal Wed night pig out and then took the DOG for a walk, waiting patiently for DH to get home from Vancouver...I bought another christmas present for him tonight...I'm getting closer, he's really hard to by for and apparently I don't always listen when he talks and drops hints!!!

other then that it was a good day...back on track tomorrow- I plan to be a little off on Friday night for my christmas party and sunday for a pre-christmas turkey dinner at a long time friends house (she's visiting now in lieu of christmas)..

Tomorrow will be a long-ish work day, gotta pack my lunch

Sick didn't win....

it was a tie at the scale!!! the scale stayed the same....which is a small victory since I was having such bad comfort food cravings!!!

however I'm still sick....and at 12:30 I've got to go wait in the line at the drop in clinic to see if they can fix me up with some antibotics or SOMETHING..this is friggin ridiculous....I'm coughing so I hard I actually vomitted!!! (sorry too much info)

anyways things with DH are going really well, hence why I havn't been glued to this thing as much as I would want...however he's appreciating the time we are spending together and the new attentiveness I am portraying :) I am home from work again- waiting for the neocitran to kick in so I can take a nap!!

WW Meeting this week was good- the leader remembered that she forgot all the awards so she re-awarded us all in front of the group- there was one lady that got her 45pd loss as well!! so we were all happy, I have this little group of "older" ladies I hang with at the meetings- as the area I live in has mostly seniors and retirees, there is only 2-3 people under 40 at my meetings...ANYWAYS.... it was fun, they are hilarious and we talked alot about food items that are good for points etc...I was talking with one lady- she is a little one and she is now down 56 pds which is awesome, but now only gets to eat like 25 points a day?!?!?!?! I really want to lose weight however i have NO IDEA how I would manage with only 25 points a day!! I currently get 35...and couldn't possibly imagine life without 10 of them....hopefully my mind will change once I'm acutually down that low- could be awhile so no sense stressing about it

So i hope however is reading this is having a great day...and I'm off to sleepy time....

My Marriage Depends on it.....

Wow- today DH and I had a spirited discussion about my incresingly crazy obsession with the internet....as well as my general distraction in life and inability to pay attention to him.....

I have a tendency to be a "bit" of a work-a-holic, and a new addiction to Weight loss chat rooms- this blog, a bunch of other peoples blogs etc....while I saw myself as geting support- what I didn't realize is that if I'm a good wife the support lives in this house....I just need to spend some time listening when he talks, remembering the things he says and paying attention to his general ups and downs....

I can totally see where he is coming from as he had to tell me 3 different times that he was going away Tuesdaynight/Wed for work....same with the course he has to go to in Jan for 3 weeks etc...

So- tonight I'm on here for the hour while he watches mythbusters and perhaps maybe not even the whole hour- but then I'll go putter around the house....and I'm going to make sure to listen well...

on another note- I slept most of the afternoon and ate mostly soup untill this evening after we talked I REALLY wanted Mc'Ds so DH went to the grocery store and then drove thru McD's for me....not very OP but made me feel better-- must get to bed early tonight so I can make it to work tomorrow and be effective in our budget meeting...

Good bye for now

hmmm what to say about today...

not a heck of a lot... Drank my whey gourmet chocolate protein 3 pt shake......then my fruit source bar- entered into budget discussions with fellow managers, then attended a workshop in the world cafe style.. Neat way to get people talking- basically you sit in small groups and the facilitator poses quesions you chat about, draw, record, take notes and then switch tables and people and they continue asking more though provoking questions.... when I first left I couldn't really even remember what we did- but basically it was a discussion about leadership and how leaders effect changes and what types of changes our community has been through, could go through and what our dream was for our community going forward.... we had some awesome not WW friendly soup for lunch and some yummy choclate squares in the PM....then I went back to work....that was an adventure-- I have an office coordinator that is very stressed out at the changes going on within our organization...she is taking "some time off" next week to re-group and gather herself, but trying to tie some loose ends up with her was interesting....I think she suffers from adult ADD and (so do I) and we couldn't get anything accomplished..finally I just took over some of the things I needed her to do and sent her home for the day.....

So that left me utterly exhausted at the end of the day-- so needless to say when I came home I was NOT in the mood to dream up a dinner, so I had Subway and me and DH took the dear doggie for a W (translation WALK-but we can't say it out loud) she gets SOOO excited...

anyways should be a good weekend -want to get all my secret santa stuff organized for the 3 different Santa persons I'm buying for, there are some craft fairs to go to, and I might end up going to work for a bit- oh the life of a manager.....you take 2 days off for sick but still have to get the work done...

Gotta get back OP tomorrow hard core as I'd really like to hit 25 lost by December....

I might decorate for X-mas in the house as I'm pretty excited about the upcoming season...

chow for now and hope anyone that reads this is having a good day!