Thursday, January 17, 2008

I'm down and out depressed/stressed/sad

wow- what a difference a day makes...my work is very stressfull right now...I'm dealing with some budget issues that are no fun-decisions were made before my arrival there and I have to defend my new plan in front of the board...all of which have different politcal agendas/motivations... its going to be messy.... it has been messy- I've let stress overcome me today- since I drove out of the work parking lot I've cried, screamed, stressed, had my heart racing, paced around the house and been a total bee-otch to my DH....i ate bad food, I;ve got some funky rash going on by my eye, my stomach as the ulcer type soreness I became familiar with in my previous stressful positon... I was going for a walk- then i cop'd out....man of man from such a high last night to such a low today..I'm not sure I can handle this- I've been able to maintain a strong front in front of the CAO and my co-managers but one my way home (as I mentioned) I cried like a little girl.... I'm going to go to bed- that is IF I can sleep, I"m hoping I can zone out and crash since my day was 10hrs with no breaks, rush rush rush

all I can say- is TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY....and I sure hope your day was better then mine!

9 comments:

Trisaratops said...

Oh honey - can you talk to anyone at work? Whatever you need - we're here for you. I'll be super opinionated lady and say that it is just a job and that your health is more important. Also, to be really obnoxious - exercise helps relieve stress - so annoying to say that to you, but as a stressful personality myself - I have noticed a difference. Please take care of yourself - I hope you find an outlet! You'll get through this.

Hanlie said...

I really hope you have a better day today! Sara is right, exercise helps, but interestingly enough, the healthier you eat, i.e. fruit and vegetables, the better able you will be to cope with stress.

Don't punish yourself with bad food, Carleen. Don't despise yourself from crying in private. We all do things like that. Women are not inferior to men, just different and we need to handle our stress differently. Crying is a valid outlet! That doesn't affect how you do your job!

I hope you walk in there tomorrow with your sweet smile firmly in place. And give hubby an extra hug for understanding...

Linda said...

The girls comments have as good as said it all.

I know you have a job to do but don't run yourself into the ground because of it, PUT YOURSELF FIRST HUN! LOOK AFTER YOURSELF!

(((hug)))

janey said...

What a horrid crappy day.You poor thing. I hope work improves soon for you lovely. xxx

Cammy said...

Ouch! That was a lousy day! Let's hope it doesn't bring a friend. :) I'll think positive thoughts for you today!

Felicia said...

Hope you have a MUCH better day today!!

Chin up! Hang in there!!

*huggles*
=0)

Shannon said...

I hope you are having a better day today!

Swizzlepop said...

I hope today was better! If your job is stressful on a regular basis you may want to try Rescue Remedy http://www.rescueremedy.com/products/

I have used it off and on for years and it really helps, especially when work is abotu to send you over the edge.
Have a great weekend!

Heather said...

aww Im sorry! that does not sound like much fun. but you are right, tomorrow is a new day and I hope it is much better for you.

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