on the SHIP

been good so far- havn't really been watching what I eat...I'm on vacation- but I have to snap out of it pretty quick as I don't want to be gaining.... the ship is awesome- Carnival Freedom...looking forward to the rest of the vaction

Gone Cruisin

Im off tomorrow for 19days of vacation!!!
i'm going to attempt to be on program and not gain too much- but still have fun!!
TTYL

feelin good--hyc update

My WI isn't untill wednesdays- but since I have the day off I thought I would actually 'checkin' I joined the HYC in the beginning- i havn't been the best at keeping up with the blogs, but always have it in the back of my mind....

I had a re-inforcement this weekend about how I can NEVER stop going to WW- or thinking about what i eat etc... I crossed paths during a visit to my old town, with a few people that used to go to WW when I lived there all 3 of them stopped going to meetings and all 3 have gained.... I really believe in the process, and have written off wednesday nigths as MY time for me going to meetings!!! I have also started working 1 meeting a month at the scales to help, cuz there isn't enough lifetimers to cover it..

in anycase- I'm feeling great about my body, my progress and my future- I'm packing for my upcomgin cruise in 16 days- from Ft Lauderdale and I'll be gone for 19.... I have this plan in my head that I'm going to use this down time from work and hubby to WORK OUT a lot while on the ship...just like biggest loser- when they can work out ALLLLLLL day :) ??? hubby and I are going to the dominican republic for new years- so perhaps then if I can reach my goal of 65 lost, I'll let myself PARTY :) ???
like I said i'm having a debate...we'll see....
hope all is well with you !!!

down 4 this week--- how does that happen..

I guess follow the plan? journal? make responsible choices...

oh right-- it can be easy... it you FOLLOW the plan :)

I'm excited- i'm totally on track to loose 60 by my trip!!! YIIIppppeee

been curling again, thats been fun and also walk/running with the doggeee

have a good one..

HAPPY Halloween....

Betty and my Barney :)
hope you all have a super duper halloweeen...

oh whatta day!!!

last night I curled as a spair for hte ladies leauge... a lady there invited me to go OUtrigger CANOEing this AM...that was AWESOME- saw 3 seals, a heron and some gorgeous scenery...went to WW lost 3 pds... so grand total 51.8 woo woo woo..... then curled tonight on the mixed team.. nad WE WON....



great day- good times...



hope your having a god day to :)

go,go,go STOP

grrr I seem to be playing my traditional 'reached a milestone- now go go go stop' game with my self..... I stalled out after thanksgiving then gained .2 on this past wednesday....
I'm pep talking myself today- to get focused, have a clean weekend and post a loss on wednesday...

this week as seen me take up CURLING- a great canadian sport eh? I could NOT beleieve how sore my legs were from all the bending and crouching, my instructor was laughing cuz I was pretty gung-ho on throwing more and more, and the next day my legs and left hip were telling me I shouldn't have pushed so hard.... ANYWAYS.... I'm going to like that, after our first game on wednesday my abbs were sore from the sweeping motion- which I was thinking was cool..

Wednesday are going to be a little busy as I got my WW meeting untill 7 and then curling starts at 7:30--and they are 20 mins apart...and i recently also have been asked to work at WW as a community helper...which was AWESOME.. i did it once before , worked the scales- and I found it really interesting and helpful- to see first hand how other members react to the scale and how they let it rule there whole days attitude...

in anycase- anyone who reads this- I'm hoping your having a fabulous weekend!

down 50pds!!!!!!!!!!

Have no internet for the the past week and not untill Tuesday !! But I had to share My success

It was great to reach that milestone!!

rain doesn't care if your fat

Walked
out the door and it was just dripping then after 1 minute it was a down pour .... It made me laugh as I was jog walking ... Thinking how the rain doesn't care what you look like- it actually makes you look worse dripping hair soggy clothes but I stayed out there... Kept going and My dog loved me for it....and My body loved me also!!

rain doesn't care if your fat

down a bit more!! -48.2 :)

I really really really really want to stay on track this week and hit 50.!!!!!!
Wish me luck :)

dog and i went running

with the healing of the sprained ankle this summer, I'm slowly getting better with my running...i'm working on my physio exercises and go out ever so carefully....my cardio went down hill when i took the time off to heal- so easing back into it is good both ways.... I do a bit of a circle route with the run 3 mins walk 1 min with a couple loops down side streets and i passed the same 2 ladies 3 times...the 3rd time they said 'your doing great- I'd be riding that doggie home by now'...I'll take that as a compliment....

at this very moment-- I feel rejunvinated, alive, motivated, keen to go again... i WISH I COULD BOTTLE THIS feeling up and save for tomorrow :)

just took pic on left tonight --- click here to see others--

go, go, go, stop???

I feel like im in a horrible episode of that childrens game- go go go stop.... with weight loss... I didn't update 2 weeks ago that i FINALLY hit 45...woo woo :) however I've spent the past 1.5 weeks idling/stalling/STOPing to care, eat properly etc....

I want this, I really like they way I felt losing as much as I have--- why can't I keep it up???

its frusterating that I do this to myself, I wouldn't even go to WW on wednesday cuz i knew I was up and didn't really have a good reason why...??? i just felt like eating bad?? I'm sure the lady at the scale would have loved that one...

so here's to a new week- I'm going to cruise a few blogs, and read some posts on the WW board...and GET back on track- right now.... maybe even go for a walk...

I'm posting this picture as a reminder of where I have come from....
August 2007

I'm going to have to get hubby to take a more recent pic... all I know is- i'm never going back to that


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so after reading some blogs- i realized even more that I need to get out of the pity party adn get going... and I did have a good weekend in so many other ways:
- took dog for 2 walks
- made 1 pt mini spanikopitas
- did DH's laundry
- did my laundry
- took doggie to the beach for swim and stick chasing
- visited with friends on friday night
- cleaned the house
- organized some boxes of old stuff
- sent bags of clothes etc to thrift store....

I can do this- Its not rocket science.... i CAN and will be positive and back on track :)

43 down....yipppe

things are going ok... just getting back in the swing of things after the sprained ankle and a stressful summer with all my collegues on holidays... I finally stopped the up a little down a little up a little rebound game I have been playing...43 is the most I've lost since 1 year and 1 week ago!!!

yes thats right-- I've been on WW for over 1 year-- approx 53 weeks, I attended 46 meetings and lost 43 pds....hmmm perhaps there IS a corelation between going to the meetings and loosing :)

just blogging to keep acountable- hopefully able to get out and see some other blogs soon..
Going on my cruise in 80 days wooooo woooo

oh how I miss being on track

its been awhile- I'm maintaining...but not losing and trying to get back on track...
now a new goal--- nov 30 heading on a 8day and 6day cruise in the carribean!!!
must get cuter for bathing suits :)

I'm going to try and get back on here more-- Summer has been hard to want to sit and write/read...

Who is this unmotived-self sabotagin-binge eating girl??

man oh man how I've missed being on track---and the scale has missed it to... I'm not sure exactly how much I"ve gained but I am extremly disappointed with myself to let it get THIS out of hand.. I think its about a 5pound gain...I had this easily acheiveable summer goal of losing 10 pounds but not I"ve got 13 to go to meet it.... To sum up my time since my last post in a few words:
-golf injury- lead to no golfing/walking golf course- lead to disapointed/depressed feeling
-wento vancouver to look at new car for husband- lead to stressed feeling about money, and eating bad/yummy vancouver food
-Summer Sea Fest party at friends- lead to alcohol and food binge
-Went Running- SPRAINED MY ANKLE-- which has lead to barely any movement due to pain, depressed and a continuation of my bad habits.
-went to WW gained, went to grocery store to buy all 'good' food, did really well was totally motivated- then as days progressed veggeis started going rotten and then we left for vancouver
-Picked up MOther - in- law from Vancouver and spent a couple days playing tourist- which lead to bad eating and minor stress...

SO now, it is a stat holiday in my province...I have a extra day off to clean out the fridge, establish a plan and hopefully (its been 7 days since sprain) go out for a run or some type...

I realized in this time since my last post- I need this blog, to be accountable, to expressing my feelings to continue on my journey!!!

run 5mins walk 1min 7 times... I DID IT

woo woo.... wow tired, almost that I was going to hyperventilate at the end as I was running up the hill home...but I did it....I survived...and I'm happy... I gained a little this week...which I expected do to TOM and some funky food cravings....but I'm going to kick it all off this week as I get really into my running and power onwards...

in a food coma-feeling down

had a pretty good weekend- golfed friday night and hurt my "golfers elbow" then had lesson on saturday and hurt it MORE... so then when my aunt and uncle visisting i ate like a little piggy... then today played pitch and putt and didn't hurt wrist but was in the hot sunshine and feel like crap now.... ate tooo much this weekend, had no control over my eating and didn't get for a run since thursday...sooo I'm going to try and wake up early tomorrow and run...cuz my dad is town tomorrow night and we may go golfing in the evening...

in anycase feelin kinda bummed, full tummy of bad food and sleepy...hope your weekend was better then mine!

Down 2!!

so I'm down 2 on my summer goal of losing 10... woo woo...

I golfed 18holes friday, had golf lesson sat, sun and then played 13 holes tuesday and 7 holes today...

Ran (and sweat like a pig) on sunday...it was hot...I needed water, I had to drag my dog...soo not so sure how I'm going to keep it up...but we'll see...
this week I really want to to well- just started TOM...so we'll see how that affects next week's WI... I'm almost thinking that I lose a little just before, however in the past I was pretty sure I gained before...anyways.. If I eat really well this week I'm pretty sure that I can beat any weight gain I may or may not be due for!!!

hope your all having a good week- this weekend my aunt and uncle are coming for a visit to play golf--- yippeee gunna be fun

TTYL

Golf Lessons and running....

do I have to go to work? I think that sounds like a good life don't you???

So today is my second golf lessons (loving it- hit my 9 iron 100yards yesterday- which was an accomplishment)...anyways...and going for my Week 7 session 3 run today of run 4 walk 1 8 times..... hopefully its not going to be TOOO HOT...



hope you all are having a super-fabulous weekend!?!

missed WW meeting...

for a good cause...it was hubby's birthday and with recent tension/miscommunications it was important to him that I spend the evening with him...so I did- we went for dinner and then to WALL_E....it was SOOO good.... I think my whole day was off track foodwise...I'm not really sure why I let myself, probably due to the little bit of sadness I had because of our arguement the night before...but I'm on track and ready to rock- I want to have a big loss this upcoming week, however it might be timed with visit form my TOM...so i'll be fighting the water retention etc...however I"m sure I can put that at bay my lots of exercise/water/proper food choices...

hope everyone else is off to a good week!
Take Care

nice hot weekend--

wow, its been AWESOME...much looking forward to the extra bonus day off on July 1st.... Went to my familys cabin on the lake for a Kareokee and suntanning extravaganza....it was a blast, didn't eat on track very well- but I spent some great time with family and friends and it was much needed.... I spent some time reflectingo n ym weightloss while there and the pictures reinforced some of the things I've been thinking....I've posted on my "who is" blog some pics taht show myself that I really do need to continue- I'm not a cute as I sometimes let myself think...
I get a little cocky

but in anycase...its on to another week- I'm up about 5 pds on the scale this afternoon...but some fibre, water and veggies should get me back on track...my legs are soo sunburnt that I can't barely walk as when the skin moves/jiggles etc it HURTS...so no run for me tonight, however I'm sweating just sitting in my house

40 pds DOWN.... woo woo....

Today was a great day....well almost... but I totally overted the wedding weight gain and managed to lose 0.8 to be down 40.2 .....

SO I'm focused, I'm ready to take on the rest of the summer, do some more races, to be fit, to eat healthy and lose 10 pds this summer...

as you can see my next focus isn't to loose hit 50pds lost...its to loose 10 pds this summer.....

that sounds attainable doesnt it??

this weekend I'm heading to the lake for some R&R, Kareokee and a couple jello shooters... should be fun...I didn't go running tonight but plan to get in one before I leave for the lake...and atleast 2 more before next WI...

also I got the WW newsletter this month and I saw the success story-- Christina-she rocks... her story is SO similar to mine that I wish I could find out more about her journey... reading her story gives me hope :) seeing her before pic-reminds me of my before pic (except mine is MUCH WORSE-like 30pds) ..and inspires me for a great after pic like hers

hears to Christina!! CHEERS

Recovering from a Wedding Weekend...

Wow- you'de think after about 40 weeks on WW I would have learned how to conduct myself at a wedding buffet...but NO....I didn't and I PIGGED out....and PIGGED out... not just at the wedding Saturday night- but on friday night at the bridal shower as well grrrr Ifelt sooooo sick/bloated/sad/disappointed with myself all day sunday...and when I tried to eat just healthy things on sunday I felt like my body was going through withdrawls and I sabatoged myself some more....when I weighed myself sunday night I was up 7 pds....

in anycase I drakn like 3 L of water, ate responsibly and played 13holes of golf and did my walk/jog routine for 42 mins.... Today will be another responsible eating day and hopefully some more exercise if my body can handle it-- I'm sore this AM...usually i only play 9 holes- but it was twilight and you pay one price and can play as many as you like.... I was soo close to the 40pd lost that now I"m really quite disappointed in myself for letting myself act like such a hog

in good news- I received quite a few compliments from family members as to how much I've lost- so that was an up- but not enough to keep me from strappin on the feed bag and going to town....grrr

anyways- new day, new week, new motivation......

good week for me...

wednesday update---- down 2.2 so I'm like 0.4 AWAY FROM 40 lost....I'll get it next week woo woo, in other news I went out for session 1 of week 6 of my running program and was almost able to complete in its entirty- it was run 5 mins walk 1 min 7 times...most of the run segmants I had to stop at like 4:30 or 4:45 there was probably like 3 that I made the whole time...it really depends on what type of road/trail/hill I'm on as to how easy/hard it is.... but its was good...now the other 2 sessions this week are just run 3 mins walk 1 min...so its nice they start the week of hard and then easier...

all good

got to go golfing last night with the guys from work-- I"m slightly out numbered eh?

But it frustereates me to see myself in pictures sometimes..still...I should have readied myself better- pulled my shirts down, push my hat back, tilted my chin out....but I didnt and thats WHO i am....ohwell- I'll look better next time :)

I DID IT....

I broke my goal... I figured I could do it in 45mins...so that was my goal...and I did... I secretly had hoped I could finish in 35...but hey- something to strive for :) my pace increased per km approx 45secods which was really good... so I'm pumped, excited and loving life :)

I can see clearly now....

the rain is gone.... wooo wooo in the words of bob marley its going to be bright sun-shiny day!!!

Looking very much forward to my RUN TONIGHT.... 5k here i come...since I know I won't be able torun the entire thing...my run on my "program" is supposed to be run 3 mins walk 1 minute....so that is the strategy I will use to get through the race...

my goals is to complete in 40mins...with pace from the 8k I should be able to do in 45..and I'd like to thing that my pace will have improved since then so I'd REALLY like to complete in 35-40mins...but we'll see...

WI was god this week...nothing to exciting- it was just in the proper direction :)

have a super one- i'll post this weekend

INSPIRATION personified

This lady is FABULOUS...

The PastaQueen lost 192 pounds...on her own. No program or anything. She just got healthy. She has an amazing blog. She's written a new book about her weight loss called Half Assed: A Weight-Loss Memoir and is having a contest to give it and some other cool stuff away.

WOOWOO I love success stories, maybe one day I'll be one to :)

Run 3 mins, walk 1 9times...

was dreading it all day- went grocery shopping- to the driving range and hit 22 golf balls (2 of which made it past the 160yard mark woo woo) then came home cooked the hubby dinner and his favorite peanut butter cookies- which I don't like :) so not tempting...

then went out for my jog.walk...it was tiring and hard- there was 2 intervals that my legs were cramped soo bad I stop running 15 -25 seconds early but for the most part I DID IT....

playing golf with the work guys tomorrow nigth and with the construction buddies on wednesday... its going to be a gooood weekkk.

hope yours is to!

signed up for 5km on Friday

hey there hi there..
weekend and last week was a little slow- recovering from birthday festivities....gained 3 pds after the previous weeks 4 pd loss... al ittle frustereating but seems to be my pattern- I loose...then gain cuz I get cocky...so then I was trying better thsi week but then got sidetracke...so today , tomorrow and tuesday and wednesday will be back on track..going grocery shopping, going running with the doggie- doing laundry and cleaning the house...

the 5km is the "Longest Day 5k" not sure why its called that- but its a fundraiser for juvenille diabetes... so should be good- it has the race timing chip so I can get an accurate pace timing to see my improvement over the 8k in May...

looking forward to an active summer- if this frekin weather will clear up...

Talk to you later

birthday 2007 VS 2008

its my birthday--I'll eat what I want to...eat what I want to...

I LALALALAL LOVE my birthday--- ALL ABOUT ME :) oh and I guess my mommy that brought me into the world

hheheh

just kidding

have a good one today!!

one more sleep to my birthday....

WOO WOO....I love birthdays- I"ve bought myseld a birthday princess ribbon to wear!! tonight we are having a staff party at my new rec facility and then I've invited the other managers over to my house to have birthday cake and some drinks.... (cake is going to be sooo NOT WW friendly) but I deserve some fun.

I've fallen a bit back in to my "i lost weight last week therefore I can cheat this week" routine which atleast I've identified....I don't like it- and I have a hard time convincing myself in the heat of the "i want ice cream" moment...but I'll just have to pay the consequence and it should teach me... I'm sooooo close to 40 pds lost that I really should be focused on getting there but sometimes- life happens...

I'm noticing that I'm pushing myself a little too hard on the running- on thursday night- my legs were aching, and I was dragging my but...so I'm going to have to start following the program directions and take days off in between and rest- perhaps incorporate some other type of exercise on the "non-running days"

I"ve also noticed that my arms are getting really flabby- I'm thinking that they are losing a little weight but without and resistance training specifically they are getting 'loose' so today I'm goingto dig out my thera-band (big sheet of elactic) and incorporate some bicep curls, tricep extenstions and just some generaly arm momvements to see if that can help!!

enjoy the weekend!!

oh right- tomorrow we are going to wlak into the skookumchuk rapids to see the extreme tide which should be nice- hopefullyl I"ll have pictures!

Down 4.4...so officially 38.4

WOOO WOO finally broke the 36 lost mark.... FINALLY...

got 32 activity points this past week...journalled every day...there must be a reason they ask you to do that on WW (oh yeah-- cuz it works :) hahaha)

anyways I just got home from the indiana jones movie (very good by the way) and must head to bed...I just wanted to pat myself on the back for my little loss this week

There is another girl at my meeting that started right around me and she hit 40 tonight--so thats a kick in the butt to keeeeep going.....one day at a time!!

RUN 3 minutes walk 2---- 7 times!!!!!!

I did it.... I thought I would need to cheat and change my watch to 2.5 minutes but I didnt

I measured myself today in total in all the places I measure I"m down 16 inchs and in waist, hips, bust etc around 2-3 in each place and bicep and calf 1 each... WOOOO WOOO

now its off to healthy grocery shop and try on some new smaller sized clothes!!!!!

happy saturday

the weekend lies ahead...

so far I'm 2 for to on tracking food and exercising....its a good week so far

I'm not sure what this weekend will entail- I"m hoping to get some sunshine!!!

I 'm hopeing its another day like this one (picture below is of my roof adventure and my conquering ladder fear)

For my american friends- enjoy your long weekend, we had ours this past weekend- so I'm on the short work week (and loving it).... I'm debating leaving work early (because I'm the boss I can...hehehe)

I got another 2 compliments today...I LOVE IT.... woo woo...

just motoring away

Life is good...ish :)
WI last night wasn't so great...however I'm feeling fabulous!! my legs are strong, I bought some pants in a store WITH OUT plus size on the sign (the same pants I bought came in sixe 2-18 YIPPEee), had a great weekend visiting friends, etc etc... been out running alot with the doggie, went for a early AM walk...

my food isn't as great as I'd like- so my WW leader was giving me a pep talk last night and my goals is to journal 4 days this week (and obviously stay within my points) and exercise etc. I really wanted to have lost 40 by my birthday JUNE 1 however life happens and I need to celebrate the small victories instead...I still could possibly make it by the WI of the 4th however going out and exercising 4 days a week is more important...

Check out my NSV blog for a picture of fear I conquered...

may long weekend in kelowna

its been a while since I've posted...life is good- currently on vacation with my best buddie from university and her new BF...its been great.... I actually (even with mild hangover) got up at 8am this AM and went for a 30 min jog/walk...attached are a couple pictures of the fun and games... we rented a boat today and cruised okanogen lake and now are enjoying a glass of wine before heading out for kareokee :)

Been running 6 days in a ROW....

who is this crazy person....its ME...

my new journey/weight loss moto- is just going to do this 2 streetlight posts at a time....
that is my plan... that keeps me going, that keeps my wanting to do more....
this week has been busy at work...and with the jogging etc...

I attended a sports bra clinic this week aswell- it was for a line of bras from Moving Comfort and there are bras for all shapes and sizes ---even ME... and we learned you should replace your sports bra pretty much every time you buy new running shoes, it is THAT important, to have proper suport etc....I couldn't decide which ones I wanted (There were 2) so I bought both.... the fiona and mia they work pretty darn good and "Never win anything" lucky me I won the draw!!! yippee...so I get eh $100 credited back to my credit card--- or can go on a little shoping spree at the store...

Today we are going to a wedding for my husbands old boss....its seems like it should be interesting- it starts at 4pm and the invitation says "refreshments to follow" and its in her parents yard..... so I'm thinking it shouldn't be too bad of a food issue- we'll be heading to vancouver sooon....

Last night I planted my HANGING BASKETS wooo woo I'll try and get a pick to post--it was fun

WI was NOT fun this week- up 3...but its TOM, and I with all the exercise I've been eating more...so I had planned on getting back on track first thing thursday AM...however its saturday morning and I've yet to write in a journal or count a point...

I'll get on that...

WOW- long time no post... DID 8K!!

hey there hi there ho there....
today my hubby and I did the "Vancouver Marathon- XLR8K"....it took me like 1hr and 15mins but I did some jogging and walking woo woo.....

in other news (wow- what to talk bout it has been soooooooo long)
Since the 20th of April I attended a conference in Victoria for work....partied like a college student for 3 nights in a row- networked, learned, mingled had a great time.... on the 26th I came home to help with the contractors appreciation day at my new community centre- followed by a great dinner and then followed from some bad behaviour on my part, I ended up heading out for drinks with some of the guys from the construction company untill 4 in the morning, that did NOT go over well with my hubby... I'm still in the doggie house...
Then with all the late nights I got SICK...with a mega cold....ick...so I've been laying low when I'm not at work...

then friday and saturday went into vancouver early to help celebrate a really good friend form university's 30th birthday day!!! which was fun, then to yuk yuks last night and thentoday the 8k.... WOW...its been busy...

in all the business I made it to WW this past wednesday and lost 9.2pds of the 10 I gained from vacation which was some good news...

this week has been off with the sickness...and today after the race I PIGGED OUT....but thats all good... I'm going to see my councellor tomorrow for the 2nd time and hubby and I are talking a bit more...

hope all is well if your worlds :)

So since my reality check WI...i've been doing pretty well trying to get back on track...but its weird how fast you get out of your 'good' ways, I've found myself suggesting bad food choices etc when the options have come up, wanting to hit the drive thru on a busy day etc...but overall I think I'm winning.... Unfortunatly I have to travel for work from Wed AM to Sat AM- living in a small community there is only 1 WW meting wed night, so today I will commit to finding on in Victoria where I'll be spending 3 days....

There was some questions in my comments about how things were going (in regards to my meltdown before V-cay) so here is the personal life update..... Hubby and I have had many great conversations about my needs, his needs, what we can do to meet those needs etc etc....we are working on it...I've also started taking an anti-depressent which I'm not sure what effect its having on my yet.... but also had my first visit to a councellor on Friday....the Counsellor wasn't all the excited that I was on the anti-d's however said to keep taking if I wanted...I began to spill my life to her in the 1hour session we had...we are meeting againg in 2 weeks and in the meantime I'm to work on "un-winding" and de-stressing and doing things I enjoy doing and also trying to "be present" I have a real issue with being soo busy I don't pay attention to my husband or listen to an employee cuz I'm always thinking forward to the next item on the list... which in turn stresses me out.... so I'm a work in progress...

Hubby had to go to vancouver yesterday for a workshop so today is our first day off together since vcay-- so I better stop blogging and go be a good wife and hang out and chat....

I'll be in touch_ I'm slowly making my way to all you "commenters" a greatly appreciate that you check in on me!!

*hugs* to all
Carleen

up 10.8...

wow so it was that bad.... I had to ask if that was a record- gaining 10.8 in 2 weeks....it was pretty shocking for me to think- in just 14 days in my old bad habits I put on that much...Its taken me since Dec to looose that much...I guess no one ever said it was easy...

the thing I'm finding frusterating is my messed up relationship with food....I always want to eat...I'm really trying to listen to my tummy - "are you hungry"? but I seem to eat in a pattern, last night after WW I was notactaully hungry but I had convinced myself that is was 7:30pm and that I'd better eat dinner... I never stop eating when I'm full- I don't know when that is...the only time it would stop me is when I've eaten so much i feel as I would vomit.... I also notice while on our variety of diferent flights that I do eat when bored...and almost any "pain" I feel in my tummy area I mis-read as "hunger".... my goal this week is to be more in tune with what is really going on....

wish me luck!

Gained 12??? hmmm

Well I said I was going to enjoy myself on V-cay but if what my scale is telling me is true.....I've gained 12pds in 2 weeks....???????? I didn't follow any plan AT ALL.... so I can't be that surprised, I was hoping for like just a 6pd gain...however this is looking a bit ridiculous... I'll find out the truth tonight when I go to WW for my real WI...my scale can sometimes be wonky but that wonky???
I'm glad to be back- sortof.... my work should be at a normal persons pace, i see the counsellor on friday and I'm on like day 8 of taking my anti-depressents...I can't tell any difference (I don't think) yet....but I'll keep taking...
hope everyone out there is keeping well!
Take Care

loving V-Cay...

its been awesome...sun, rollercoasters, convertable, capri pants from last summer that are to big for me, new size 18 capri pants, quality time with the hubby, fun with friends, great fireworks! yeah yeah... GOOD FOOD... I love american food...well the OLD carleen loves american food- i'm finding it hard to want to choose the healthy food options as the "bad" food has soo many good memories/flaovrs...like Garlic/Hot Zingers from the ALE HOUSE.... ohwell- I'm trying and walking LOTS... so we'll see how it goes... hope all is well for you and yours...

I truely am a goof :)

Kept forgetting to post my Measurement results... this is a huge NSV for me... I love progress :)

BY the way---- like my new shirt that I'm getting ready to wear as I particepate in the 8K run that happens at the same time as the Vancouver Marathon....which is May 4...so the pressure is on to lose AND KEEP OFF 4 more pounds, so I won't be a big liar... I told the t-shirt lady I wanted to Brag about my weightloss- am I crazy???

anyways I told her I'd be back to get my 50, 70, 90pd shirts in the near future :)

I'M GOIN TO DISNEYWORLD!!!!!

wooo wooo woo... k- i"m still sorta sad, and my heads a little messed up but I'm heading on VACATION....with HUBBY... i saw my Dr and I've started taking Wellbutrin (its a anti-depressent that has the least impact on weight-so the DR says)..... I went to vancouver yesterday and bought some clothes!! SIZE 18 shorts woo woo woo--- good bye 22 and 24's :) I'm pumped...

My boss it holding down the fort for me at work- which is great, I'm pretending to be a housewife today- with laundry and cleaning.... hubby and I MADE OuT last night which was awesome....-its been awhile- anyways I'm thinking with the work stress, the shock of losing 36 pds, not communicating with hubby that is why I've got a messed up version of reality right now....

I'm going to try and stay on program while away- but also going to enjoy myself :)

Take Care all and thanks for stickin with me :)

This is Hubby and me Feb 07- on our honey moon... hope I look cuter this time around :)

What to do...What to do...

I've truly been trying to continue on my heathly new lifestyle....I've been doing well, I've been seeing results, I've been working at it.... however its just been tough....

So if you've been reading my blog for a long time- you will know I've been under incredible stress from work....the culmination of that stress happened this weekend with the opening of my new facility....Last night after work...I came home and blurted out to my husband that I didn't like marriage and I wasn't sure what to do..... outta nowhere- this comment came to me, I've been working longlong hours and am looking forward to vacation which is happening on Monday.... but I guess I've been having second thougths about being married- since I have soo many responsibilites at work- for some strange reason I don't seem to want the responcibility of being in a relationship.,,??? Whats wrong with me.... now I've hurt my hubby's feelings as he's always supported me....but I'm just wondering if I'm jsut overwhelmed with everything- or what... I really want to just run away and hide.... ahhh

Tonight is WW- I still havn't decieded if I will go....I'm pretty sure I'm up- its been a HELL of a week and I ate Mcdonalds at 2pm (still can't get over a minor comfort eat)....

I've made myself an appointment with the DR (i went a while back and told him I was having a hard time dealing with stress- and he told me to come back later--- its now later) and I'm waiting to hear back from the EFAP people with the name of a counsellor in my area.... the hardest part about all this is that my messed up head is causing someone else pain (my hubby)... my boss sent me home from work for the rest of the week untill my vacation to allow me some time to get my head straight--- however i feel bad leaving work before tying up all the loose ends (even though I've pretty much worked my A$$ off and I'm pretty sure work is what caused all of this).....

in anycase- I need to be strong- figure out what is bugging me and get it worked out- the look on my hubbys face this morning when he asked me if he should start looking for a place to live truly broke my heart..

***** SCALE UPDATE. Down 5.6 and hubby is taking me out for dinner....wish us luck***

Easter

Didn't quite make my challenge goal- but just happy to be still on the journey- in the right direction and seeing some progres!!! I wrote a post on my NSV blog to show that...
Have a great day---I havn't seen the Easter Bunny around here yet- thats a good thing- fatten someone else up eh? :)

OFF TOPIC_ does anyone know how to find google reader anymore? Its disappeared?---FIGURED IT OUT>>> JUST DIDN"T HAVE PROPER SITE BOOKMARKED>>> I"M BACK IN NOW!

DOWN 3.6....so total 33.2 hit 10% and finally 30....YIPPPPEEEeeee

and I don't really have time to celebrate- unforntunatly this manager is on her way to the construction site/new facility to do some work- deliveries are arriving, emails need to be written, employees need guidance.... so yes its Good Friday and I'm going to work...however to put this in perspective for myself- what I'm doing is a "once in a career" type opportunity- "opening new recreation facilities" so this is my second and I should be loving every minute of it- as these are the things I will talk about if I become a professor later on or public speaker of somesort...28years old and opening a 12.8 million dollar facility---it truly is an opportunity..
it is my 12th day in a row and most have been 10-13hrs.... I'm going on vacation April 7th and will REALLY need the relaxation :)

Take Care and have a super duper duper easter weekend!!

this is me enjoying the benefits of my LONG days at work.... talking on my blackberry....

down 0.4....so close to 30 I can taste it

little disappointing.... I was really hoping to pull out 1.8 that night cuz it would have been monumental...I'm in the middle of getting a 12.8million dollar facility ready to open to the public and supervising the finishing off construction etc etc...to actually make my 10% would have been an incredible accomplishment.... however just simply not gaining...as when I'm a stress case I eat eat eat....so to loose a little is way better then gaining....

however i've really gotta watch myself the rest of this week- with all the construction managers, project managers etc around I've had lots of out for lunchs and dinners and even some drinks...
so today SAT-- i'm cleaning up and eating better....
all the way to Wednesday :)

hope everyone elses week etc is going well....

Down 2.2 for a Grand Total of 29.2...

Yippee....

busy busy day- must go to bed

I HATE VEGGIES!!!

Ick, Blah, gross disscusting....

ok..I'm over it...however tonight i was TRYING to be that good "healthy" lifestyle girl I know I should be...however I literally (no exaggerating) was gagging on the veggies... i tried to do the good thing I bought frozen veggies (cauliflower, broccaoli, carrots) put some seasoning on them, put them in the microwave (for the amount of time recommended) and attempted to eat them with my meatloaf... DH was havbing tattertots and I was going to have these freekin veggies... THey seemed to cool down faster then the meatloaf and just the smell of the caluiflower was making me ill... Soo.... I cried a little/had a mini tantrum (had bad day at work) then had some salad instead...

perhaps I should eat them raw? I don't knwo what was wrong but man that was bad!!

in other news I put some more pics on my other blog... if your interested.... it also is where I'm trying to figure out why pictures are so different/unflattering...

anyways have a GREAT WEEK

WIGGED OUT....

wooo wooo oh whatta night!!!

it was super... duper.. and I'm getting back on track today....

a little too much booze and snackies...

it was actually quite funny- in this quiet place we live to have 21 women wonder off a tour bus into a pub and be the centre of attention!!! we had a blast, dancing on sports bars, terrorizing pool players and just have a good ole' girls night....

getting ready to WIG OUT...

this weekend a girl I know is planning a 21lady pub crawl- in which we all have to wear a WIG!! It should be a BLAST

this is me testing out my wig in a few different styles

.. just got home from my wog with the dog...we were up to 1.8 miles... that is exciting..

my food choices were NOT so great today..but I got my exercise in...tomorrow is going to be a very difficult day at work...probably a very long day aswell- the lunch meeting I'm attending is having food brought in... MUST try to have the will power to make good choices!!

Take Care y'all

onwards to monday

went this weekend to vancouver to visit my good friend BROOKEY....it was much fun, although we didn't end up at th rock show to see the flairs, we had a great time....my friend has been working on losing weight aswell and is doing very well....we are probably going cheer each other on the next few weeks....

it was lots of fun and today she straigthend my hair WOW....that was super- I feel cool...anyways food wise I made some un-good choices, didn't exercise untill tonight- which was a wog with the dog...but went to costco and stocked up and some good food and I'm ready to rock this week!!

hope you have a good weekend!!!! talk to you later

Down 3.2....

well I faced my music last night.... I missed the previous WI due to work committments but the WI before that I was up 3...so I've got back to were I start as well as .2!!! So I'm on track and excited...
Thursdays I usually slack on my breakfasts "since I have all week to get back on track" however today I made my 2 point Whey Gourmet sTrawberry banana smoothie (from PVL NUtrition) with an added teaspoon of fibre sure.....and am off to the races...
Today I have to meet the local politicians and give them a behind the scenes tour of my new COmmuinty Centre and Arena...should be interesting- politicians (especially from different municipalities) like to try and put staff on the spot by asking ridiculous questions...So...we'll see how that goes...
I have to head to another Board COmmittee meeting from 1pm-5ish...so today I don't get much time to actually do my work- but just entertain the board...so we'll see how it goes. I anticipate to get Subway for lunch...but maybe I'll grab a lean cusine-- it might be safer (the garuntee of food at work- instead of relying on going out to get subway-- there is never enough time!)

Anyways hopeall is well for you--

been alright!

since my last post I have turned myself around...been doing pretty good on my eating and have been out there exercising alot more....my woggin (jog/walk) has been progressing really nicely....

I have mixed emotions over my WI at WW tomorrow...I'm ready to face the music...and actually I'm pretty darn proud of myself of regaining some control over my eating etc...my job is very stressful right now- I'm about to open a 12.8million dollar community centre and arena, balance a 3million dollar operating budget for some other facilities, make board presentations, hire staff, attend evening meetings, get scrutinized by the community/user groups etc, work 50hrs a week... i'm under alot of pressure- however I'm still finding time to go for a "wog" with the dog and eat pretty well... not sure what the scale will say but hey--- life happens :)

Take Care 'all-- i"m going to watch Biggest loser woo woo LOVE THAT SHOW
*hugs*

hmmm...what have I been doing

not following the program....THATS WHAT.....grrrrr

totally sidetracked off the program...work, life in general

no excuses- there are many days I could have choosen better but didn't
I didn't make it to WW this week as I had an evening meeting that went right through the time...

but heres to tomorrow as a new day...

Now back to reality....

I wanna be a stand up comedian!!! We went to Yuk Yuks last night and we laughed sooo much and it was really funny cuz the guys were talkin about such real stuff...pointing out the obvious...

but thats not going to happen- I've got a high paying day job that will get in the way!!!

SO really back to reality I must face the fact I had a 3pd gain on Wed Feb 6---in all the frenzy of trying out for idol, I negected to post about it, write about it or come up with a game plan...So here I am now Sunday Feb 9 and I've not been eating on progam for 1weekand 1/2....so unless I get wrking on it I could be up another couple pds this WED....so no- its not going to happen...I'm adding fibre to every possible thing I eat (bought some fibresure that mixes in with food), goingto take my Maggie-Dog on atleast 1-2mile walk/jog or 2 smaller ones...and plan all my food for the next 3 days....get into the real world, and get loseing again!!
*hugs* to all for the nice comments on my idol day....it was an experience, that I will remember forever....

My day auditioning for Canadian IDOL!! ahh

Well its 630am..I'm awake, dressed, and waiting for the ferry to leave to get me to Vancouver....WHAT AM I Doing !!!!! This probably one of the biggest whims I've acted on in a long while.... up at 5:15am... not a morning person

I'll be posting updates here through out the day since Ill have no-one to talk too!!


I arived at metrotownat 730am got in line up....met another 'older' person (26)...we've been doing the wave on camera...there is ssoooo many people and really we havnt moved in the line yet...ohwell its the experience...

So by around 930am we finally got our numbers --- i was 2073.... we waited and waited....then finally around 12pm my number got called... they walked us out of the mall- across the street and into some holding trailiers...then we went on our group of 5 to the producer...

Well my groups was interesting and only one of us got the yellow ticket to the next round...she brought her guitar in and played it while singing..

After singing "I love and rock roll" ...she critiqued us all togehter and started by saying this is just a TV show and they are casting certain people, after 6 seasons they know what they are looking for etc etc...I was told I sounded pretty good, I should have made more eye contact, was a little nervous and not really what they were looking for at this time... I felt like saying-- is that becuase I'm fat....but I refrained...it was funny- I was the oldest person there (the age limit is 28) and the only girl that got beyond round one in my group was a 17 y/o blonde girl...hmmmm I guess she is what they are looking for..

in all it was an eventful day---good personal growth experience to go and be brave with all those hundreds of people!!

Reminder to all- go and take your chance on what you want to to!!

*hugs*

Going to Canadian Idol Auditions...

Wish me luck...as I confront my childhood desire to be a STAR!!! I really love the idea or performing, speaking and being in front of people.... I was supposed to go travel with Up with People back in the day, always kinda felt I missed something by continuing with my education and pursuing my career in recreation management.... SO for my very last opportunity I will be going to Canadian Idol audtions tomorrow in Vancouver..this is my last opportunity as you can only be 28...so its now or never... I don't really even care if I make it past the stage one auditions...I just want to say i did it....i was part of this crazy phenonemon (sp)....i could possibly be on TV AND I LOVE IT.....

Wish me luck!!!

This has been a top secret mission- my husband 2 co-workers and my dad know-- thats it....and of course all of you my good bloggin buddies!

*HUGS*

Healthy you Challenge- Update

Hey there...
Since scale junkie changed the rules- I'm back in the game... woo woo woo....I've committedd to checking everyone's blog that posts a comment on mine (to be honest- I think is slightly rude when you post comments on blogs and you never see them visit yours) ANYWAYS...support is great in whatever form it takes...I will also be randomly checkin various blogs VIA mr linky.... when the chance arrises- it may take me all week but I'm gonna do it

This week has been difficult- I just couldn't get it together foodwise, yesterday my TOM arrived which sorta explained the weird cravings, back pain, thirst....anyways I'm pretty sure I'll be up at my meeting tomorrow night (wed WI) but I'll posta bout that later.....I'm committed to a strick program this upcoming week- I REALLY need to win the mini-challege with my husband (we set up a valentines challenge since Jan- currently I"m winning however if he actually tries he could probably kick my butt)

I'm heading off to my hometown tonight to visit a friend who is here from Australia...getting sick and have a big day at work- actually I may not even make it back in time for my meeting we'll see it has been snowing all night- the drive could be treaterous

Take Care all and have a Healthy WEEK!!

thanks for the boost

between the positive comments on here and on the WW group on Facebook and from my 'real world' friends... I"m pumped- I'm ready- I'm good to go...loose all i've got to loose....



however- I've just come down with a cold, want the comfort soup (had chicken noodle) and now going to have a Neocitran and head to bed...I can NOT let this cold get me sidetracked I was sick in Vovember for 3 weeks and it toally stalled out my WL...



So I will go to bed early- I won't let this get me down....

Yee-haw---yes thats me, umm probably around 275 2006 year at the Rodeo being a judge...YEEE HAww....

IN OTHER NEWS>... I received my responce from Scale Junkie re: withdrawing from the Healthy You Challenge....she is leaving me on the blog roll and I can check in when I can...so you havn't seen the last of this girly!!

I think I see the difference...do you see a difference?

do you think there is much of a difference?

Its Superbowl day *rolls eyes* however I wil be watching the commercials on our 47inch LCD tv in high definition (I think that is the only reason my DH bought it a couple weeks ago!!!) hopefully no bad snacks...I'm going to go for a walk here before my dad and stepmom come over..

Hope your superbowl sunday is full of fun!

and then it snowed...

not alot...but enough to make the sidewalks icy/splippery not "running" worthy....grrr
we'll see- here on the coast if you don't like the weight just wait an hour...so We'll see in a couple of hours the sun could be out and I'll be dancing in the streets!!!

_______________________

a little while later I was dancing in the streest with my DOG while walking and joggin... this is the view from the top story of my house.... 3 hrs after the snow stopped..

sometimes I love life...

and sometimes I don't .... but to day I love it...

I had a hellish week at work....but the footloose and fancy free feeling of the weekend coming up makes it all worth while... there really isn't anything special planned but I get some me time....going to jog/walk my doggie and hang with the hubby and be on program... sounds good to me!!

HOpe your having a great week and into the weekend....

I need another drink :)

down 1.4

Woowooo... Another loss!!
meeting was good...pig-outafter meeting was great too...
heres to a good week!

Its not good-bye forever....

Its been with much debate with my self that I will be leaving the healthy you challenge, although I'm still very committeed to my journey to a healthier me... the time constraints are too much with me and my busy work life right now.... I 'm thinking that in the spring I might possibly re-join once work settles down... its a day to day struggle for me to just plan my meals and journal my food, work 12hrs and go for a walk etc so the extra time on the computer isn't working for me....
I'll be checking in on your guys-- since your already in my google reader!!! I wish you all the best and look forward to seeing the positive changes with you all in the near future!!
Thank-you Scale Junkie for putting this together, you rock!!
Much appreciated :)

*hugs*
Carleen

In other news- we got hit with a SNOW STORM last night.... i la la la la love snow...growing up in this Seattle-type climate when we get snow I get GIDDY....they ever close school here :) however my employees couldn't make it in to work and since I live close by I had to go and open the pool this morning for the other staffers that could make it.. I was there at 5:30am and got home a few minutes ago and am now working on some reports for a deadline tomorrow...

Tomorrow is WW....I'm pumped, I don't think I'm going to loose MUCH...however I hope it will be a really good meeting and hoping to get some more training on the scales etc...

I'll keep you posted....

Cheers to a New Week....

Monday morning....ahhhh

I very much dislike monday mornings...espceially since DH has MOnday off, while I must pry myself outta bed he gets to cuddle in and sleep some more...however tomorrow I'm not going to try and be as quiet as in the past cuz this saturday on my day off he woke me up at 6am...so my 7am monday will be payback...

Other then not wanting to get out of bed, I never like all the voicemails and e-mails that await me on Monday....spend most of the morning trying to sort through them....however its the start of a new week/fresh break from the weekend...

Today DH said "you know what we havn't done in awhile"... "go out for breakfast..." I was like YEAH we havn't....mostly because I can't control myself at breakfast restauratns, so since WW its been off limits.... but anyways we went...and true to form I pig-ished out.... 2 eggs, 2 bacons, 3 french toasts w syrup, 2 peices of brown buttered toast....but I saved my day by only eating an apple in the afternoon, and then a 3point chicken breast and lots of homemade greek salad with no feta.....

My neighbor is training to be a message therapist she offered to give me a massage....which was nice...

in all it was a good weekend- it snowed a little which si always exciting..
HAVE A GREAT WEEK

Down 0.4 and was "helping"

life has been very very busy this week...I managed to pull off a 0.4 loss even though I've been slightly neglecting my healthy choices.... I've had very little time to even be on the internet let alone check blogs... I actually came home sick form work today so I could spend the afternoon for myself..
I've managed to get on 4-40 mins walks this week....
Last night re-motivated me as I was getting my training as community helper at the meeting...I weighed people in and provided information for those at the scale...it was AWESOME...

I'm totally not letting myself get discouraged with the small loss this week- only a motivation to do better next week.... hope your all doing well- I intend to catch up with you all today... *hugs*

I apologize for the late check-in on the healthy you challenge...My WI is wednesday and I don't have a scale at home...

wow- just opend my google reader and I have 429 posts to catch up on...its at this point I wonder if I should bow out of the challenge and go this alone..... I'll do my best to check them all and then make a decision to leave or stay....I really truely have enjoyed meeting you all but I need whatever free time i have to exercise and meal plan not sitting for hours on my butt checkin blogs....

now 2 hrs later and 1 load of laundry.. I'm at 338 to read....
now 1 hr later (and another load of laundry) and I'm at 312 to read...but filing through Mr Linky...I"m thinking I'm going to abolish google reader and then just do the Mr Linky checkin for all my fellow challengers....I usually scroll back a couple of messages on there blogs to see what is going on... we'll see
hope your all doing well...

i'm alive and welll

just SUPER busy at work- but things are going well...I hope to be celebrating another loss this week and to get some time to visit you all very very soon!!!
Thanks for stopping in and checking on me

Its a new day to day!

I'm feeling better- I'm not sure if its the St.Johns Wort....or the fact that I'm just dealing a little bit better or what...I know I'll have to go into work today for a bit- our CAO has demanded 3 versions of a report for Monday... (at 2pm on Friday) so we're all working a bit to get it done... grrr anyways I met a friend a WW and she and I are going for a W-A-L-K (can't say it out loud my doggie will get tooo excited....hehehe) hope your saturdays are fun and eventful... I want to thank ALL of you commenters for such positive words on my past 3 posts....and I'll do my BEST to visist your blogs before monday... Take Care!

where is the motivated girl

I work up a little down today...and so far my work day has been peaceful as I try to create my TO DO list and manage the things I have to get done... i found myself in the McD's drive thru this AM with plans to do it again at lunch..grrr....I will get something healthier however I just need to kick this funk i'm in... I purchased some St Johns Wort tuesday and hadn;t opened the bottle yet- I took a pill this AM-- maybe that will improve my mood...
I really hope your days are going better then mine... I just don't feel like myself!

I'm down and out depressed/stressed/sad

wow- what a difference a day makes...my work is very stressfull right now...I'm dealing with some budget issues that are no fun-decisions were made before my arrival there and I have to defend my new plan in front of the board...all of which have different politcal agendas/motivations... its going to be messy.... it has been messy- I've let stress overcome me today- since I drove out of the work parking lot I've cried, screamed, stressed, had my heart racing, paced around the house and been a total bee-otch to my DH....i ate bad food, I;ve got some funky rash going on by my eye, my stomach as the ulcer type soreness I became familiar with in my previous stressful positon... I was going for a walk- then i cop'd out....man of man from such a high last night to such a low today..I'm not sure I can handle this- I've been able to maintain a strong front in front of the CAO and my co-managers but one my way home (as I mentioned) I cried like a little girl.... I'm going to go to bed- that is IF I can sleep, I"m hoping I can zone out and crash since my day was 10hrs with no breaks, rush rush rush

all I can say- is TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY....and I sure hope your day was better then mine!

I lost 2.8 pds---- woo wooo wooo

tonights meeting was great.....I lost my 2.8 and then made my 25pd goal loss....
yipppee-- in other exciting news because my new community is small they have a very hard time getting lifetimers to work there- so my leader asked me if i would like to be a community helper for hte meetings in the future and help weigh in people----- totally AWESOME... my hidden desire is to be a WW Leader-- as one of my goals in life is to be a motivational speaker, so this little opportunity is a step in that direction!!

WOOWOOO hope everyone else is doing well!
Talk to you soon

miss print in my book its supposed to me 25.6 looks like 28

and if anyone knows what the 25 thingy is (I'm thinking its and "anchor" to add to my 10% keychain ---- when I finally get it!!

When do you give up the pants

yesterday and today I wore 2 different pairs of size 22 reitmans encore pants, both without beltloops...I have to use blackberry at work which weighs down my pants...this AM when I tied my shoes they were sliding off, I can remove with out undoing the button or zipper--- is it time to retire these pants? I've got some size 20's and 18's i'm eyeing up in my closet!!

thanks for the support....

I appreciate all the kind comments on the last post-- you are all right....I don't need to keep this secret- but I don't really have any "friends" here yet- I just moved here 6 mths ago and work so much that the only people I have met are work aquaintances...I think once I can get my major construction project (12.8million dollar arena/community centre) finished and opened (fingers crossed for Feb 15th) I should have some more time to branch out.....

The close friends I do have have heard me mention before that I was "trying to loose weight" becuase we only talk on the phone/facebook they don't really need to know untill I've got some great pics etc.....

So as for censoring my blog on things I say...because this job and my last job were in local government- I have had to watch what I say only because I'm paid for by the taxpayers blah blah blah...so the work venting may have to be at a minimun...I've made my locations etc a bit more annoymous (sure wish I could spell that word- is is right?)

in any case I will tell how my day REALLy was...oh my goodness....we'll we're trying to finalize our budgets for operating the new recreation facilities in this region....and we're like 400,000 over what they predicted 2 yrs ago....so we're trying to scrimp and save and justify and adjust and I'm soooooo freeking sick of excel documents... one of my other challenges is that I'm the only girl in the management team (4 others, male 3-50+, 1- 40+) so I end up doing the "skirt" work...usually coordiating the presentations and entering the data from the discussions...which I don't mind cuz I'm a little bit of a control freak!!! ANYWAYs its been very overwhelming and today the meeting when from 8am-12:30pm and all I had to eat was 2points of weight control oatmeal....man was I cranky....then I had to speed off to the pool I manage to enter into a discussion about staff scheduling and how we'll fill a mat leave posting in a place where there aren't very many lifeguards to begin with and how my aquatic coordinators want to stay with a 4 day work week...then I sped back to the office to compile the budget discussions in to 1 fullyl inked functional excel documetn...which I sent to my house to proof before sendign to the treasurer to be scrutinized in our afternoon meeting tomorriw....

grrr--- all I want to do is play on WW boards, facebook and blogs!! but I've gotta work....

in anycase I'll be procrasinating so hopefully I can visit some of your blogs this evening...

I finished off my day with a 6inch turkey sub from subway and 4 timbits- my points are gone and I'm ready for bed!!
Chow for now !!

My blog....

I've been debating what to write all day- I've spent the day cleaning, taking breaks to check other fellow challenger blogs- I've avoided 'proper' exercise all day....
My current WL journey is pretty much a secret from all people that I see/spend time with/work with etc....its not that I want it to be secret- But I find it hard to tell people cuz I'm still afraid of failing....so i've not been telling anyone (except DH and some family)...is that healthy? the odd person knows- because they have noticed..
Now I'm even being guarded about what I want to say here- I'm almost nervous that there is so many people reading and checking out my blog-- what if its someone i know and they report back to my boss or people in my town--- is it possible? should I worry? should I try to be more annoymous?

ahhh what to do- this is supposed to be a place for me to share my journey but at the same time I'm censoring how I really feel sometimes....

so in the meantime, I'll keep blogging....but thats always in the back of my mind...

The groceries of a Weight Watcher

As I was putting away my things from my most recent trip to the store- I had a good laugh at the things that were in my bin....made me laugh.... I also picked up a people magazine for some extra motivation....hope you all are having a GREAT WEEKEND...

Gotta finish unpacking the groceries and go for a walk...

did that walk- that was really good 1.39miles!!

Then I played photo experiment check this out...I'm kinda funny...

I LOST 8 pds!!!

WOW_---- I have to say that is a MAJOR surprise....I think having my TOM and detoxifying after christmas by staying totally on plan and drinking my water....was the story for success this week!!!

this week has been good- I feel very motivated, the only thing that is discouraging/worrying me is getting to everyones blogs...some days I'm at work now fo 10-11 hrs and then I have to come home/cook dinner/ try and walk-exercise....so I may not be able to get to everyone more then once a week...but I commit to getting there once a week!!! and I won't be able to update untill Wed because that is my WI

other then that WW program worked for me, and I'll be continuing on this week- I really need some more exercise....and I REALLY will need to be strong and avoid quick/easy/bad choices...

i binged

grrrrr......how can i do that to myself....all was going well- was hungry when got home from ouber stressful day, had sensible snack (still had 20points left- out of 34!!) then ate dinner still had like 7 left and then I just ate, and ate and ate...I mean most thing were low points but WHAT WAS I THINKING (well I wasn't, I guess cuz i'm soooo mad at myself now) I made myself sit down after I was thinking rationally and write it all down (using wrappers as evidence) and now I'm at -9....now this fattie either needs to run a marathon tonight or I'm in debt of points...
grrr.. anyways I may take the dog for a walk- its the least I could do, my tummy feels icky and I feel like I may vomit... walking the dog would help, I gotta go...

hope you all are having a better day then me...

nothing to say?

I've talked myself out by visiting lots of blogs and commenting today...I've also spent my day adding all my challenger buddies into google reader...with the people I had in there before I'm up to 47 blogs...I worried I'm missing people(espeically those on the easter challenge)... amoungst being a internet addict today, I healthy grocery shopped, walk the dog, made fruit salad, stayed within my points...trying to rest and relax as its going to be a busy 45-50hr week.....no exciting plans except for WI on Wed at my WW meeting....hope everyone has a great week!

if there's nothing posted here...

then check my NSV blog.... I'd just like to thank all the new people for stopping by my blog! Its kinda fun to know people are actually reading :)

Also I've "unlocked" my photo page for the next little while--I didn't like the idea of just ANYone seeing my scary pics so if your interested click here

To those on the Shannon's Easter Challenge- I've ben doing my best to visit all of your blogs but some of the links aren't working for my computer- so if you feel left out I havn't made an comments- drop my a comment here and link and I'll book mark you!

Off to walk the DOGGIE!

also I have a post below- that is discussing perception of weight vs sizes....i'm not trying to offend any one- but take a peek if you'd like to

Trying to figure out sizes

This isn't ment to be an offensive post- just me trying to process some thoughts....and this shouldn't really be happening becasue weight is just a number- I'm doing this to be healthy etc etc however its my curiousity that is getting the best of my--- enough said, here goes...

It puzzles me a little to figure out what weight is what size.... I've read MANY blogs in the past couple weeks and its very interesting to me when I see how much someone weighs and the size they are coming or going from...I guess height has ALOT to do with it, but I just wondering how the world see's us (not that I should care but.....I'm curious)

This reminds me of a conversation I walked into between my mom and one of her friends- at the time I was 16 and I was 218 pds (remember cuz i was trying to get under 200)-athletic (played v-ball and basketball)...I heard my moms friend say (who in my memory was very rollie pollie and 'bigger then me') was saying she was soo worried about getting close to 200 pds.... it puzzled me- maybe she was lieing to my mom or her 200 pds looked different then my 200 pds...

I'm 296 at this time and when I was 310 I was Size 22 (a little tight) and now loosly a 22 pant/20 fits a ittybitty tight.

Do I look 300 pds? I know that when I've told people how much I weigh (ones I can trust in the real world) they are shocked....maybe people don't have a good concept of how weight to looks...

Anyone else care to share?

Glad its the end of the week

even thought I only had to work 3 days this week- this whole "getting back on program" and getting back into routine has been TOUGH....I'm excited cuz my day off tomorrow will consist of some errands, and treating myself to a hair cut and color, walking the dog and going to the recycling bin (one of my resloutions do more good deeds).....

Must also prepare some foods for the week- as its going to be busy....sometimes I wish I was a husband that came home to a prepared meal- however in our house we both work and I still have to pretend to be a good housewife....although DH does some cooking (which is very yummy) and I can do some to.... we really need a housecleaner!!!

anyways I've been falling on and off the wagon this week (got a few bruises) but I'm commited to getting on starting at lunch today.. :) so its onward and downward for the weekend...

I'm thinkin about you all...

Hey there
Please don't be offended or upset- my work just got VERY busy and wil for the next couple of weeks I'll be back on 50-60hr weeks not near computer all the time...I'm totally commited to the challenges I've joined, but I may not get to visit your blogs as often as I would like...I'll be trying my best to visit and then posting on here in the evenings.....I"m so excited about the great possibilities out there with these challenges and so pumped to have "met" so many great people so far....Take Care of yourselfs and I'll be around as MUCH as possible...

Today was a pretty good day- however food didn't go so well in the evening, I have to remember to eat more points in the day so I'm not famished by the time I get home and gobble everything up in sight....went grocery shopping with DH- that was good...

Take Care and Happy Friday tomorrow!

up 6 pds!!!

wow- am I ever motivated to loose that and everything else I have to loose!!!
meeting was good tonight, not very busy- guess everyone is waiting for a couple of weeks?!

work was ok- SOOO much to do in preparation for our next facility opening...

So I've been having a pretty postive outlook on my gain- it was my own fault, and i knew I'd be up-- but I have to admit it was VERY defeating to have to change my ticker to the h....igher weight... but onward and upward...

how does the best intentioned day turn bad??

I was doing so good- so motivated- so ready for this new year....then I steped on the scale (it was up) then I thought I would make myself feel beter by re-taking my measurements (last taken on Nov) and the 2 I took where the SAME....and then I went downstairs,

I think I left it too late to eat breakfast- then when I started to eat, I couldn't stop..as well last night they made me take food home from the party- (I'm sure your saying, nobody can make you do anything) but i refused refused and they snuck a tray into my bag....I guess I could have thrown them out once I was home- but I didn't and I ate those....grrrrr
we then tried to go grocery shopping for some healthy stuff- to get this NEW YEAR started...however every freekin grocery store was closed, so we ended up at a pub....
the only redeeming quality of my day was I went for a walk, and got 3 loads of laundry done-- tomorrow is a new day....and tonight is the start of BIggest LOSER!! woo woo new season

Jan 1 2008- nice to meet you

This is my post for getting started at the Healthy You Challenge....

My name is Carleen, I live in British Columbia Canada with my husband and dog and cat.

My main goals for the healthy you challenge are:

• Lose and maintain 75 pounds
• Exercise 4 days a week
• Exercise for min of 20 mins each time- increasing to 40mins by Dec.
• Learn not to "romanticize" food. My husband often tells me its all I think about- landmark locations by resataurants, reminese about trips by the food we ate. etc
• Celebrate the little things/enjoy the journey(started this already- set up a secondary blog for my Non-Scale Victories in life- you'll see the link off my main page)
• Stick to my new years resolutions that impact my whole life- not just weight loss

Just an note- I'm doing WW meetings as my method to lose, and I've almost got my husband interested in joining!!!Take Care look forward to hearing about you all!

in other news:
new day new year....I'm had alot of time on my hands the past couple days (my office has closed since the 21)....so i've browsed lots of blogs, snooped lots of boards and in all been gathering many motivating peices of advice.... one that stuck espeically in my head was "i didn't get a chance to eat any sweets but thats ok- it just means I have less weight to loose then" or something like that.... so I'm going to try and approach all my food intake like that- you can have one to taste- then fill up on something good for you- then if you want have another taste- but you don't need to fill up on the superhigh calorie treat everything that goes in, has to be worked off....(that concept may be obvious to some- however it just really made sense to me last night) So yesterday I didn't get as much time to organize as I would have liked so that is today...started my day with a 2 REALLY big glasses of water...(kinda pigged out last night- need the clense)

and i'm off to clean my house?!? fun fun